Some stories shared by the fellow roleplayers on twitter (or the other sites too, maybe). Sad, romantic, funny, those are the actual things happening in the roleplay world. Enjoy reading!
1. My RP Story (by: Gwakmonkey_)
It all began in the June. To forget my horrible yet painful friendship in real life. I decided to "run away" from reality. It was my first time roleplaying at this place... it was small yet it was nice. All of us are close to each other, and all of us are actually talking to each other. No one was left out. We joke together, we laugh together, we share happiness together, we also share sadness together. Then, I met an amazing girl who happen to be my first love (plus she happens to be my bias pmsl) at first, i didn't know much about her, and we argue quite a lot cause of certain someone (but she's like my baby sister and le ex gf don't really get along with her) you know what they say? you will understand your partner better if you have been through all this arguments and hard times. She was like my other half, she was there for me when i was in my worse. I had great rp friends, and a great rp girlfriend. i could spend many hours just tweeting with them. It brings me joy. And also! The night gang. Me, Yongguk, Hara and Hyosung plus a mean girl who's always stalking (?) us (haha you don't need to know) We basically talks about nonsense stuff, and stuffs we shouldn't talk about. I would stay up late, and talk craps with them because 4/5 of us would be in TL only... Spamming XD
Well, that happiness didn't last forever. Old members left, or just dissappeared in thin air. New members joined, but they aren't really friendly or talk much. All of us grew distant. Some of them are in hiatus, or just deact without saying goodbye. And then, my girlfriend told me she wanted to leave the rp family, and go solo because she thinks it doesn't suits her anymore. I didn't want her to feel lonely, i left with her. When i left, i realized my girlfriend remove my name in her bio. I wanted to ask her why. But i just kept quiet. And I didn't remove her name in my bio. A few days later, i wanted to deact cause I told everyone I wanted to focus on my studies. but that's not the reason.. I had problems in real life. I kept a secret. I didn't want to bother everyone. It is better to keep my problems quiet. I didn't even told my girlfriend. Days slowly faded, I misses my girlfriend. She makes me happy, really happy. So after i came back.
...... She had someone. It was her boyfriend. Her first boyfriend. Before i came, he left her 2/3+ days (deact) ... You don't know how heartbroken I am. I felt like a rebound. Like a reused paper, a recycle bag, a broken piece of glass. I didn't say anything. I just.. went "Ah."
I had chest pain when i think of that (i am not blaming her. its just that i did a lot of stupid stuff before i start rp and it causes pain. so when i think; it causes me more pain.) I may have forgive you but I can never forget that day. After that day happen, all i face in relationship are all pain, sadness and some bullshit feelings. (yeah what happen to no-feelings-involved-in-rp. i'm stupid right?)
As days passing by; I met another girl. Well, I was struck in between because my "daughther" like me too. My "daughther" and this girl. I choose this girl instead because... I had a feeling. Something great. As we talk more, I realized we didn't have anything in common. We always ask each other "How are you?" "What are you doing?" "Have you eaten?" "Are you sleepy?" "How was school?" nothing else. She wasn't a talker. Until one day, something upset me (i am not sure what. i kinda forget.) she noticed it and ask me what happen. I told her about my past (plus the stupid stuff i did irl) she was shocked, she couldn't believe it. I told her how much i dislike my friends in real life. They might be nice to you but they will stab you in the back. After that talk, she.. become more gentle. "Even if you have no one, you have me right?" I wanted to cry (lol ikr) because that's the sweetest thing someone said to me. It been a long time since I had that feeling... And days keep on passing by, we always talk about random stuff. I realized that we needed time to know each other and we will get along well. We had small arguements but she was understanding. I felt that maybe she "heal" me slowly from those pains... But, she had to go on hiatus due to her final exams. I understand that... Since that day, every night i always wait for her, checking my dm that if she replies... She appears in our 2nd anniversary. It was good enough for me. A month later passes, she didn't return. I asked her friends. They said she's busy irl and barely talk to her. I began to feel afraid of losing her. She just dissappearing like that. I do not want it. Even if she does, at least she needs to say goodbye. It's good enough for me.
Because of this, it affects my real life. I couldn't focus on my studies. I kept on thinking about her. My close friends (who rps) gotten worried about me. But I kept on saying "I'm fine" even tho they knew I wasn't fine.
While waiting for her, I met a different yet unqiue girl. She was different from other girls. She's not clingy, she's not romantic, but... she's cute at times. The more I talk to her, the more my feelings grown. To set myself "free", i forget about my relationship and "broke up" with her. This unique girl, I found her. She have some pains. Because she used to like this someone a lot (and his rp chara is the same as me; I wouldn't tell you what happen ok) I shared her my story, and she shared hers. I felt that maybe we are somehow are fated to meet. Because she's in pain, and from what i realized... she needed someone to be with her, even tho she doesn't say it. I had a feeling, she do. Because I heard stories about her. She's one of a kind. I told myself that I will be always there for her, making her smile, and try to erase that painful past from her. But it was too hard, really hard. But I didn't want to give up, I do not want too. We got to know each other well, and grow more closer. We give each other pet (?) names, i call her wifey, and she calls me hubby. And now? Well. We are taking things quite slow. To me, it is important to see her smiling. That's all I need.
/sighs/ Roleplay world is like a test in a real world. Yes, it escapes your real life activities (?) but it's like a test. Happiness, sadness, tears, pain, joy, laughters, and definitely memories. Those memories. Those amazing memories. At first, you wouldn't put feelings, but as you stay longer, your feelings might get involved (ok actually depend) As for me, there are times I regret, there are times I don't regret.
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Well, that happiness didn't last forever. Old members left, or just dissappeared in thin air. New members joined, but they aren't really friendly or talk much. All of us grew distant. Some of them are in hiatus, or just deact without saying goodbye. And then, my girlfriend told me she wanted to leave the rp family, and go solo because she thinks it doesn't suits her anymore. I didn't want her to feel lonely, i left with her. When i left, i realized my girlfriend remove my name in her bio. I wanted to ask her why. But i just kept quiet. And I didn't remove her name in my bio. A few days later, i wanted to deact cause I told everyone I wanted to focus on my studies. but that's not the reason.. I had problems in real life. I kept a secret. I didn't want to bother everyone. It is better to keep my problems quiet. I didn't even told my girlfriend. Days slowly faded, I misses my girlfriend. She makes me happy, really happy. So after i came back.
...... She had someone. It was her boyfriend. Her first boyfriend. Before i came, he left her 2/3+ days (deact) ... You don't know how heartbroken I am. I felt like a rebound. Like a reused paper, a recycle bag, a broken piece of glass. I didn't say anything. I just.. went "Ah."
I had chest pain when i think of that (i am not blaming her. its just that i did a lot of stupid stuff before i start rp and it causes pain. so when i think; it causes me more pain.) I may have forgive you but I can never forget that day. After that day happen, all i face in relationship are all pain, sadness and some bullshit feelings. (yeah what happen to no-feelings-involved-in-rp. i'm stupid right?)
As days passing by; I met another girl. Well, I was struck in between because my "daughther" like me too. My "daughther" and this girl. I choose this girl instead because... I had a feeling. Something great. As we talk more, I realized we didn't have anything in common. We always ask each other "How are you?" "What are you doing?" "Have you eaten?" "Are you sleepy?" "How was school?" nothing else. She wasn't a talker. Until one day, something upset me (i am not sure what. i kinda forget.) she noticed it and ask me what happen. I told her about my past (plus the stupid stuff i did irl) she was shocked, she couldn't believe it. I told her how much i dislike my friends in real life. They might be nice to you but they will stab you in the back. After that talk, she.. become more gentle. "Even if you have no one, you have me right?" I wanted to cry (lol ikr) because that's the sweetest thing someone said to me. It been a long time since I had that feeling... And days keep on passing by, we always talk about random stuff. I realized that we needed time to know each other and we will get along well. We had small arguements but she was understanding. I felt that maybe she "heal" me slowly from those pains... But, she had to go on hiatus due to her final exams. I understand that... Since that day, every night i always wait for her, checking my dm that if she replies... She appears in our 2nd anniversary. It was good enough for me. A month later passes, she didn't return. I asked her friends. They said she's busy irl and barely talk to her. I began to feel afraid of losing her. She just dissappearing like that. I do not want it. Even if she does, at least she needs to say goodbye. It's good enough for me.
Because of this, it affects my real life. I couldn't focus on my studies. I kept on thinking about her. My close friends (who rps) gotten worried about me. But I kept on saying "I'm fine" even tho they knew I wasn't fine.
While waiting for her, I met a different yet unqiue girl. She was different from other girls. She's not clingy, she's not romantic, but... she's cute at times. The more I talk to her, the more my feelings grown. To set myself "free", i forget about my relationship and "broke up" with her. This unique girl, I found her. She have some pains. Because she used to like this someone a lot (and his rp chara is the same as me; I wouldn't tell you what happen ok) I shared her my story, and she shared hers. I felt that maybe we are somehow are fated to meet. Because she's in pain, and from what i realized... she needed someone to be with her, even tho she doesn't say it. I had a feeling, she do. Because I heard stories about her. She's one of a kind. I told myself that I will be always there for her, making her smile, and try to erase that painful past from her. But it was too hard, really hard. But I didn't want to give up, I do not want too. We got to know each other well, and grow more closer. We give each other pet (?) names, i call her wifey, and she calls me hubby. And now? Well. We are taking things quite slow. To me, it is important to see her smiling. That's all I need.
/sighs/ Roleplay world is like a test in a real world. Yes, it escapes your real life activities (?) but it's like a test. Happiness, sadness, tears, pain, joy, laughters, and definitely memories. Those memories. Those amazing memories. At first, you wouldn't put feelings, but as you stay longer, your feelings might get involved (ok actually depend) As for me, there are times I regret, there are times I don't regret.
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2.. My RP Story
(by: Bambi)
Hi Surumi-chan
How are you? I hope you are fine and having good time
I wanna tell you my love story in RP. Yes, I know, some people said I shouldn't involve my real feeling. But, what can I do? even RPW is a fake world, but what we do isn't right? orz whatever.. hehe..
My story is about my couple, my angel..
He is, - yes my couple is a He, and I'm into yaoi - my first couple. I've been play RP since mid 2011, and until I met him, I didn't have couple at all. I'm telling the truth. What can I do? I didn't find a yeoja/namja that makes me feel comfortable like he does. And I don't want to force my own self in a relationship that I even don't want to have.
First time I knew him is when I tried to find members of group of idol that I roleplayed. Then I found him. And he already had couple. But, I don't know why I feel he is different, something from him attract me. And I never follow his account yet I keep checking on it, looking and trying to find out how is he doing today. Then I found out his couple left him alone. Without any reason, his couple left him.
I saw him being down, sad, or whatever you could say about him being left alone. I want to cheer him up, but I couldn't do it. Why? He didn't know me at that time, and me, out of nowhere, come and comfort him? LOL He would think I'm a creeper, a stalker.
Long but short, I need to take hiatus from RPW, even I didn't want, I had to do it. Serious hiatus. Something happen in RL. then after I finished my hiatus, I wondered that he is still single, or his couple already cameback, or he is with someone new. Nervous, but I kept checking his account. Thank God! LOL his account still there and he was still SINGLE! that made me decided I will be with him in proper way. Proper way means I will introduce myself to him. BUT, it ended with me, reserved my current rp now. Joined his agency. LOL. I didn't want to be a stranger from another world and ask for friendship with him. I would like to come feel like family and then be friends with him.
I did tell him that I like him and would have him as my couple. But, he didn't agree right away, still afraid I will do the same like his previous couple did. then I kept talking to him everyday, in DM, mentions, even in YM and Skype. I never ask his real. Because I believe it will be good if something stay the way it is :) then on the special day, I confessed to him on timeline, "in front of" many people. I sang a song titled "Tree Covered With Dew". And the meaning of this song lyric is very deep for me and him, and also the lyrics made him accept my love to him. ^^
Surumi-chan
I read all your tweets, and I agree with you. Even this is a fake world, feeling we have isn't.
This has been my love story, and I know it's pretty common and boring, but still I want to share with you.
Thank you for 'listening' to my story, Surumi-chan ^^
p.s: can you not reveal my RP uname? Please keep it as unknow. or eeerrrrr from Bambi ^^ Thank you Surumi-chan! Surumi-chan JJANG!
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How are you? I hope you are fine and having good time
I wanna tell you my love story in RP. Yes, I know, some people said I shouldn't involve my real feeling. But, what can I do? even RPW is a fake world, but what we do isn't right? orz whatever.. hehe..
My story is about my couple, my angel..
He is, - yes my couple is a He, and I'm into yaoi - my first couple. I've been play RP since mid 2011, and until I met him, I didn't have couple at all. I'm telling the truth. What can I do? I didn't find a yeoja/namja that makes me feel comfortable like he does. And I don't want to force my own self in a relationship that I even don't want to have.
First time I knew him is when I tried to find members of group of idol that I roleplayed. Then I found him. And he already had couple. But, I don't know why I feel he is different, something from him attract me. And I never follow his account yet I keep checking on it, looking and trying to find out how is he doing today. Then I found out his couple left him alone. Without any reason, his couple left him.
I saw him being down, sad, or whatever you could say about him being left alone. I want to cheer him up, but I couldn't do it. Why? He didn't know me at that time, and me, out of nowhere, come and comfort him? LOL He would think I'm a creeper, a stalker.
Long but short, I need to take hiatus from RPW, even I didn't want, I had to do it. Serious hiatus. Something happen in RL. then after I finished my hiatus, I wondered that he is still single, or his couple already cameback, or he is with someone new. Nervous, but I kept checking his account. Thank God! LOL his account still there and he was still SINGLE! that made me decided I will be with him in proper way. Proper way means I will introduce myself to him. BUT, it ended with me, reserved my current rp now. Joined his agency. LOL. I didn't want to be a stranger from another world and ask for friendship with him. I would like to come feel like family and then be friends with him.
I did tell him that I like him and would have him as my couple. But, he didn't agree right away, still afraid I will do the same like his previous couple did. then I kept talking to him everyday, in DM, mentions, even in YM and Skype. I never ask his real. Because I believe it will be good if something stay the way it is :) then on the special day, I confessed to him on timeline, "in front of" many people. I sang a song titled "Tree Covered With Dew". And the meaning of this song lyric is very deep for me and him, and also the lyrics made him accept my love to him. ^^
Surumi-chan
I read all your tweets, and I agree with you. Even this is a fake world, feeling we have isn't.
This has been my love story, and I know it's pretty common and boring, but still I want to share with you.
Thank you for 'listening' to my story, Surumi-chan ^^
p.s: can you not reveal my RP uname? Please keep it as unknow. or eeerrrrr from Bambi ^^ Thank you Surumi-chan! Surumi-chan JJANG!
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3. I got Cyber-Bullying Because of Roleplay
(by: BB_Juniell)
Hello,surumi-Chan! I have been following your account for awhile now,and I think your account is amazing! I want to share my story about roleplaying.
I began roleplaying when I was in grade nine,and my first roleplay is an anime roleplay in Facebook. But then I learn that we can RP as k-idols too,so I joined my first RP in Facebook. After awhile,I join a roleplay in Twitter,because I felt their theme is unique. At first,I enjoyed myself roleplaying in there,because I thought that everyone is such a nice person. But then,I felt..weird.
Everyone are not the same again. They started to play in groups, and often bad mouthed or back-stabbed other role-players.when somebody did "drama" in there,the leader of the group,Lizzy complains for the overreacted drama. I felt confused. Why is she telling that,when in fact she did the same type of drama a few days ago? And her drama is even worst than hers. She did the same exact thing when I was playing my "drama" . It was a short drama because it ended pretty easy. And she was like "Drama is okay,but don't be too much. People have been complaining about you." I was like,okay. I'll stop. Then I pointed out something for her. I noticed that their theme is the same like a certain novel,so I told her about that novel. Then her "friend" tweeted this. "this rp is an original rp. Not based on *the novel's title* ." I was in shock. How dare they claim something that were never theirs? Finally I got tired of that,and deactivate from that agency. After
awhile,I see the Base account tweets via my PA. The admin said pretty mean things about me and my friends who joined that RP.I knew they are stalking my PA's account because they wrote everything that I wrote on my PA. I was hurt. And maybe this sounds ridiculous. I actually cried when they say those mean things towards me. Well,not directly because they didn't mentioned my name,but still.
I know that roleplay world is a fake world,but please don't be like that. They are ruining the idol's image. Ever since I knew the Lizzy from that roleplay agency,I never see the real Lizzy the same again. I wish that people would stop sending hate menfess or insulting someone in their TL.
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I began roleplaying when I was in grade nine,and my first roleplay is an anime roleplay in Facebook. But then I learn that we can RP as k-idols too,so I joined my first RP in Facebook. After awhile,I join a roleplay in Twitter,because I felt their theme is unique. At first,I enjoyed myself roleplaying in there,because I thought that everyone is such a nice person. But then,I felt..weird.
Everyone are not the same again. They started to play in groups, and often bad mouthed or back-stabbed other role-players.when somebody did "drama" in there,the leader of the group,Lizzy complains for the overreacted drama. I felt confused. Why is she telling that,when in fact she did the same type of drama a few days ago? And her drama is even worst than hers. She did the same exact thing when I was playing my "drama" . It was a short drama because it ended pretty easy. And she was like "Drama is okay,but don't be too much. People have been complaining about you." I was like,okay. I'll stop. Then I pointed out something for her. I noticed that their theme is the same like a certain novel,so I told her about that novel. Then her "friend" tweeted this. "this rp is an original rp. Not based on *the novel's title* ." I was in shock. How dare they claim something that were never theirs? Finally I got tired of that,and deactivate from that agency. After
awhile,I see the Base account tweets via my PA. The admin said pretty mean things about me and my friends who joined that RP.I knew they are stalking my PA's account because they wrote everything that I wrote on my PA. I was hurt. And maybe this sounds ridiculous. I actually cried when they say those mean things towards me. Well,not directly because they didn't mentioned my name,but still.
I know that roleplay world is a fake world,but please don't be like that. They are ruining the idol's image. Ever since I knew the Lizzy from that roleplay agency,I never see the real Lizzy the same again. I wish that people would stop sending hate menfess or insulting someone in their TL.
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4. My Happy Ending
(by: H)
I guess after I write this maybe most of you won't talk to me?
Okay here I start.
It all happen after I move to a new account. The reason I want to move is
because I want to forget my previous rp life and start a new one so
I start to make new friends with a new style.After a while I went
searching for a group full of chinese peeps. So I post in FYHP to add
me into chinese group if they have one. So I was added to a group with
full of chinese they all friendly and I start to like it everyday I
will go on fb to chat with them. One day, a guy from the group
suddenly talk to me. ( We never talk in the group before ) As the days
go we start to know each other.He the first rp guy that make me feel
so special. After weeks I getting busy and busy so I start to ignore
or reply shortly to him. He start to worried and told me that "Let
find more topics to talk about I don't want lost contact with you." I
was shock actually because no one dare to talk to me in that way
because I am a cold girl.
So we start to talk rare stuff getting know to each other very well.
After two months he became my bf and I became his gf. After that I
intro him to one of my best friends in RP and RL ( Krystal ). Krystal
told me that I should break with him because he talk rudely with her.I
told her that I just putting it as r/s doesn't mean I'm into it( that
time we just put for fun but we getting into the game )and I told her
that it his way of talking.To test him so I use Krystal account to ask
him question and other things and he passed it. I ask Krystal to calm
down and I know why he worried about me ( because smth happen to me in
rl ).
As the time I keep hiatus because I need prepare for my exam a big
exam. Got once I hiatus without telling him and make him mad.I know it
my fault so I went to apologize. Actually I'm watch him everyday but I
din't post or reply anything because I'm jealous that many girls post
on his wall. We always fight for this kind of things( hiatus things)
As days keep going,we start to ignore each other and our love start to
fade. So one day he inbox me "Hey!you there?" Me: "ya?anything?" He :"
ermm...nothing" I know that he got something to tell so I force him to
say it out at the end he say "Let break up"
So I agree with him and we break.He keep apologize because he break
his promise.I know he will say that from the start but I don't want
lie myself by thinking that he love me . After that I stop rping and
deactive my account to forget about him.I thought I won't remember
about him but I do.
1 month gone again and I'm back to RPW again ofc with new account and
I still can't forget about him.So I give my old account to my best
friend T-ae. I ask her to take care of that account and told me if got
someone find the old owner( ya that me).In the new account I actually
search for his account too because he deactive after I did.On my
birthday he appear ( he contact my old account which T-ae taking care
of so I tell T-ae to give him my new account link) So he inbox me and
then I talk to him like we used to do before. After that day, we back
to the old times like before. One day, I ask him " Do you regret break
up with me?"(I scare to ask actually but I want to know the answer )
He" yes I did" I was kinda speechless that time and my eyes is tearly.
After that I change the topic. He told me that he lie to me about his
age and country and I ask why that time I'm kinda angry because I
spend months with him and he lie to me so he explain and he say "
because you told me your ideal type is someone older than you that why
I say I'm 16 and I'm same country with you" My mad slowly gone and I
forgive him.
After that he suddenly told me this " I'm TB" I'm kinda clueless about
TB so I told him tomboy lol? then he say wow you so clever. So I'm
told him don't do joke like that!After that I close my account because
I'm angry about it. Another month passed I open that account again he
talk to me. And we continue like before (I'm actually scare about that
he say something about that TB topic again ) We become closer and
closer so he ask for my phone number I ask why he say " To get know
you better" so I give him. We talk in fb,twitter and even phone
everyday and everynight till I'm sleepy.
The things I scared about is coming. I forget what we talk about but
he say " You forget right?I say I'm TB" I don't want to reply him and
ask him stop that topic but I can't continue lying to myself so I say
I thought you kidding? then he say no. it real. My tears start to fall
and fall. I told her not to text me anymore delete each other number
and walk our own path without bothering each other (I'm bad I know) .I
sms my rl best friend she know half of my story which is I got BF I
told her that I break up with" him "but I din't told her that he is a
she and I cry till I fall asleep The 2nd-3rd days after know the truth
is really suffer me alot because I still can't accept the fate.
on that 2 days I keep sms with my two rl best friends one of my best
friend message me by saying " Don't do stupid things cheer up where
the old you I use to know? "He" leave you but we din't! Think about us
and your family" That words really wake me up because I'm the most
cheering person in the gang but still it take some times for me to
forget everything. The 4th day I forget all those sad memories so I
went to twitter tweet in hangul " We still friends right" she din't
reply but her tweet sound mad or something so I ignore it. The 5th day
I finally back to my oldself I tweet like usually fangirling like
usual and finally she reply me and tweet me with a Hi.
We continue chat and chat ofc we forget about our past about I'm her
ex and she mine. We just talked like best friend till now we still
contact each other.From here I learn how to forgive.Maybe I used to
like a girl but what should I say is that is just my imagination. I
like her as a guy not a girl :) She my best friend now and forever.
My story is weird I know and it kinda messy because I don't know what
to write too many things happen this year. This story only 60% out of
the full story I guess :). I guess no one will talk to me anymore.
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Okay here I start.
It all happen after I move to a new account. The reason I want to move is
because I want to forget my previous rp life and start a new one so
I start to make new friends with a new style.After a while I went
searching for a group full of chinese peeps. So I post in FYHP to add
me into chinese group if they have one. So I was added to a group with
full of chinese they all friendly and I start to like it everyday I
will go on fb to chat with them. One day, a guy from the group
suddenly talk to me. ( We never talk in the group before ) As the days
go we start to know each other.He the first rp guy that make me feel
so special. After weeks I getting busy and busy so I start to ignore
or reply shortly to him. He start to worried and told me that "Let
find more topics to talk about I don't want lost contact with you." I
was shock actually because no one dare to talk to me in that way
because I am a cold girl.
So we start to talk rare stuff getting know to each other very well.
After two months he became my bf and I became his gf. After that I
intro him to one of my best friends in RP and RL ( Krystal ). Krystal
told me that I should break with him because he talk rudely with her.I
told her that I just putting it as r/s doesn't mean I'm into it( that
time we just put for fun but we getting into the game )and I told her
that it his way of talking.To test him so I use Krystal account to ask
him question and other things and he passed it. I ask Krystal to calm
down and I know why he worried about me ( because smth happen to me in
rl ).
As the time I keep hiatus because I need prepare for my exam a big
exam. Got once I hiatus without telling him and make him mad.I know it
my fault so I went to apologize. Actually I'm watch him everyday but I
din't post or reply anything because I'm jealous that many girls post
on his wall. We always fight for this kind of things( hiatus things)
As days keep going,we start to ignore each other and our love start to
fade. So one day he inbox me "Hey!you there?" Me: "ya?anything?" He :"
ermm...nothing" I know that he got something to tell so I force him to
say it out at the end he say "Let break up"
So I agree with him and we break.He keep apologize because he break
his promise.I know he will say that from the start but I don't want
lie myself by thinking that he love me . After that I stop rping and
deactive my account to forget about him.I thought I won't remember
about him but I do.
1 month gone again and I'm back to RPW again ofc with new account and
I still can't forget about him.So I give my old account to my best
friend T-ae. I ask her to take care of that account and told me if got
someone find the old owner( ya that me).In the new account I actually
search for his account too because he deactive after I did.On my
birthday he appear ( he contact my old account which T-ae taking care
of so I tell T-ae to give him my new account link) So he inbox me and
then I talk to him like we used to do before. After that day, we back
to the old times like before. One day, I ask him " Do you regret break
up with me?"(I scare to ask actually but I want to know the answer )
He" yes I did" I was kinda speechless that time and my eyes is tearly.
After that I change the topic. He told me that he lie to me about his
age and country and I ask why that time I'm kinda angry because I
spend months with him and he lie to me so he explain and he say "
because you told me your ideal type is someone older than you that why
I say I'm 16 and I'm same country with you" My mad slowly gone and I
forgive him.
After that he suddenly told me this " I'm TB" I'm kinda clueless about
TB so I told him tomboy lol? then he say wow you so clever. So I'm
told him don't do joke like that!After that I close my account because
I'm angry about it. Another month passed I open that account again he
talk to me. And we continue like before (I'm actually scare about that
he say something about that TB topic again ) We become closer and
closer so he ask for my phone number I ask why he say " To get know
you better" so I give him. We talk in fb,twitter and even phone
everyday and everynight till I'm sleepy.
The things I scared about is coming. I forget what we talk about but
he say " You forget right?I say I'm TB" I don't want to reply him and
ask him stop that topic but I can't continue lying to myself so I say
I thought you kidding? then he say no. it real. My tears start to fall
and fall. I told her not to text me anymore delete each other number
and walk our own path without bothering each other (I'm bad I know) .I
sms my rl best friend she know half of my story which is I got BF I
told her that I break up with" him "but I din't told her that he is a
she and I cry till I fall asleep The 2nd-3rd days after know the truth
is really suffer me alot because I still can't accept the fate.
on that 2 days I keep sms with my two rl best friends one of my best
friend message me by saying " Don't do stupid things cheer up where
the old you I use to know? "He" leave you but we din't! Think about us
and your family" That words really wake me up because I'm the most
cheering person in the gang but still it take some times for me to
forget everything. The 4th day I forget all those sad memories so I
went to twitter tweet in hangul " We still friends right" she din't
reply but her tweet sound mad or something so I ignore it. The 5th day
I finally back to my oldself I tweet like usually fangirling like
usual and finally she reply me and tweet me with a Hi.
We continue chat and chat ofc we forget about our past about I'm her
ex and she mine. We just talked like best friend till now we still
contact each other.From here I learn how to forgive.Maybe I used to
like a girl but what should I say is that is just my imagination. I
like her as a guy not a girl :) She my best friend now and forever.
My story is weird I know and it kinda messy because I don't know what
to write too many things happen this year. This story only 60% out of
the full story I guess :). I guess no one will talk to me anymore.
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5. A Little Less Than Forever
(by: Anon)
First of all, I'm sorry for making this anonymously. There are some circumstances which I can't possibly tell my real identity.
I decided to join roleplay world, because my friend dragged me up to this stuff. I was, at first, roleplaying MBLAQ's Mir. Dumbfounded, I was like a lost kid without any clue of destination. I was awkward at starting conversations, and even worse at keeping it going. Until it was up to when I randomly added a roleplayer of SNSD's Yoona.
It was nothing at first, really. Only some short conversations like "What's up?" "What are you doing?" "Have you eaten?" "How was your day?" And I don't know since when, we started becoming a little bit opened up to each other. I found out that behind those cheerful smile she liked to give me, there was a huge wound and fear of past. She told me about her ex-fiancee, Jonghyun. She told me how she thought they were 'forever', but out of sudden, Jonghyun disappeared. it had been months but she still couldn't let go.
Time passed, until I determined myself to confess to her. I had such a small hope back then, because I didn't intend to be her boyfriend. I only wanted to be honest about my feeling because I thought, it would help a bit. A small smile curved on her lips when I said those three words people would always love to hear. "I'll give you a chance," she said. Those words lifted up my bent-down-head in joy. I had a chance. July 3rd 2011.
And it went just like that. We were a happy couple in a relationship. I thought that perhaps I could be his new 'forever'. But no. It all changed. Just like a storm came without any warning. Jonghyun came back. And it was obvious that Yoona was still madly in love with him. "Mir can make me smile by doing sweet things," she once told her best friend. "But Jonghyun oppa can make me smile without even doing anything," My whole world broke down. July 19th 2011.
Weeks after weeks, I still couldn't move on. She didn't end up with Jonghyun. That bastard left her. But she disappeared just like that. I waited for her. Yes, i was such a big fool. Knowing I had no chance anymore, and yet still begging for a little space in her heart I wish I could fill. Then came the day God finally answered my prayer. She's back. But she's no longer the cheerful girl I used to know. World changed her to a cold girl. And yet, I still smiled warmly at her. I hoped I could share my warmth together with her. August 15th 2011.
She always pushed me away every time I tried to get closer with her. Replying my wallpost with only one, or three at the most, words. But I wouldn't give up. I did not give up because I didn't have anything to give up. She was all that I needed.
During my pathetic time trying to get her heart back, came another girl into my life. She was no other but Yoona's best friend, Tiffany. I told her every word of my story, not less, not more. And so did she. She told me about her boyfriend, Junhyung. We became closer. Closer than we expected, to be honest.
It was funny how fate played with our life. Twice. Yoona left me twice. She disappeared again out of sudden. Without even saying goodbye. She just left, leaving not even a foot print. November 11th 2011.
By that incident, I concluded that I might better give up on her. I changed. I became a jackass playboy. Never really serious with a girl. Broke up with one to be with another. Number one world's biggest asshole. Enjoyed breaking girls' hearts.
But what they didn't know was, it was all to hide my true self. My true broken self. Yes, I was fragile and broken inside. And the only one who knew about it and collected the pieces of my heart to unite it one together again was Tiffany.
We were never a couple. We were never in a relationship. She was Junhyung's honey, and I was, back then, Shinyeong's babyboo. But no one knew how much we talked in inbox. I reminisced our messages just now and it actually reached 4000 conversations. No one knew how we stood up for each other. No one knew how we cared for each other. No one knew how we reminded each other to eat and study. No one knew how many times we kissed. No one knew how we were the first persons to greet good morning and the last to greet good night every day, each other. No one knew how much we loved each other.
I never remembered the first time we met, or the first time we confessed the words 'I love you' to each other, unlike how I always remembered every single date with Yoona. Perhaps it was because time didn't matter anymore for me. I didn't want anything to tie me and Tiffany up. Not even time. I wanted us to be eternity. Again, to be 'forever'.
But, I guess, God wouldn't let me to feel what 'forever' feels like. A big problem in real life appeared. To be frank, the problem was that my father was diagnosed with lung cancer. My family was not a rich one, except for my ugh... except for a woman I was forced to call 'mom'. When 'mom' was supposed to help father with her finance ability, she refused. It made everything much more difficult. I had to work, and went studying at the same side. It made me a lot busier, and I couldn't go online much more.
I told her about this, and she understood. I decided to leave facebook roleplay. But we actually never said goodbye to each other. Maybe we were just too afraid. Too afraid that we might never get to see each other anymore.
A year had passed since then. I joined twitter roleplay, and yet I still opened up my facebook account once in a while, to see if she was there. But she wasn't. Back then, she frequently wrote on my wall. She said she wanted me to come back. An everyday post started becoming once a week. It drifted to once a month, and finally there was none anymore. Her last post stated that she had quit roleplaying. But she still re-read our old messages. "Our memories are too precious for me to forget. No, I'll keep the messages there. Forever," she said.
I smiled at the post. Now I could understand about 'forever'. Our memories. Even if the time faded, our memories would still be there. Everlasting. Eternal. Forever.
Reading our old messages, I would always laugh to myself. How she was so childish, and so was I. How she motivated me to get a good score by kissing me. How we would call each other 'soulmates'. How I would hug her whenever she said it's cold. How distant meant nothing when we were together.
Now, she has grown up a lot. She has been much more mature, and much prettier. [yes... in real life] She might not know, but I'm always there, seeing her from afar. Seeing how's her condition now. Listening all of her stories in silence. Yes, she will not know. My little girl is not little anymore. And it gives me a relief. I'm sure she's ready to face the real world now. She ever thanked me for I had taught her about life, but I refused the gratitude. Because that time, I hadn't taught her anything. It was when I left her, when we weren't in contact anymore, that I taught her about life. And she still smiled facing it. It means she's successful to learn about what I exactly taught.
"Ha, now.. I don't even know whether it's right to call you my soulmate. -laughs- I don't think we're even soulmates in the first place. It's just all in the rp world, hm? After that paradise thing.. I seriously can't bring myself to believe all the promises and "Iloveyous" in the past. I doubt, honestly. But you should know that I'll never dislike you. You're still mine, and I'm yours." she posted. I smiled. Yes, RP world could be so much dangerous sometimes.
I don't even think we're soulmates from the very first time, because yes, it was only roleplaying. Because I was 'Mir' and she was 'Tiffany'. Because we were someone else, and not even ourselves.
And yet, yes. She's still mine and I'm still hers, even though we actually never had each other. RP world wasn't only RP world. Each person you met, each person you talked to, each person you were close too. Those who hide behind the names of Korean idols, are all unique humanbeings, with their own characters, their own charms, their own flaws. We liked each other, hated each other, in love with each other. And although sometimes it was only 'Mir is in a relationship with Yoona', you know you can't deny your feeling in real life.
To stay in RP world or to leave is 100% your choice. To leave just because you're broken-hearted is also your choice. But to stay because it's still worth staying, is also your choice. Involving real life feeling too much in RP world is dangerous, I know. But it's impossible somehow for not involving it. Correct me if I'm wrong.
And like what she said, She's still mine and I'm still hers. Still. Still for forever. Well, forever might be a little too much. Maybe it's a little less than forever.
Sincerely yours,
Your awesome soulmate
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I decided to join roleplay world, because my friend dragged me up to this stuff. I was, at first, roleplaying MBLAQ's Mir. Dumbfounded, I was like a lost kid without any clue of destination. I was awkward at starting conversations, and even worse at keeping it going. Until it was up to when I randomly added a roleplayer of SNSD's Yoona.
It was nothing at first, really. Only some short conversations like "What's up?" "What are you doing?" "Have you eaten?" "How was your day?" And I don't know since when, we started becoming a little bit opened up to each other. I found out that behind those cheerful smile she liked to give me, there was a huge wound and fear of past. She told me about her ex-fiancee, Jonghyun. She told me how she thought they were 'forever', but out of sudden, Jonghyun disappeared. it had been months but she still couldn't let go.
Time passed, until I determined myself to confess to her. I had such a small hope back then, because I didn't intend to be her boyfriend. I only wanted to be honest about my feeling because I thought, it would help a bit. A small smile curved on her lips when I said those three words people would always love to hear. "I'll give you a chance," she said. Those words lifted up my bent-down-head in joy. I had a chance. July 3rd 2011.
And it went just like that. We were a happy couple in a relationship. I thought that perhaps I could be his new 'forever'. But no. It all changed. Just like a storm came without any warning. Jonghyun came back. And it was obvious that Yoona was still madly in love with him. "Mir can make me smile by doing sweet things," she once told her best friend. "But Jonghyun oppa can make me smile without even doing anything," My whole world broke down. July 19th 2011.
Weeks after weeks, I still couldn't move on. She didn't end up with Jonghyun. That bastard left her. But she disappeared just like that. I waited for her. Yes, i was such a big fool. Knowing I had no chance anymore, and yet still begging for a little space in her heart I wish I could fill. Then came the day God finally answered my prayer. She's back. But she's no longer the cheerful girl I used to know. World changed her to a cold girl. And yet, I still smiled warmly at her. I hoped I could share my warmth together with her. August 15th 2011.
She always pushed me away every time I tried to get closer with her. Replying my wallpost with only one, or three at the most, words. But I wouldn't give up. I did not give up because I didn't have anything to give up. She was all that I needed.
During my pathetic time trying to get her heart back, came another girl into my life. She was no other but Yoona's best friend, Tiffany. I told her every word of my story, not less, not more. And so did she. She told me about her boyfriend, Junhyung. We became closer. Closer than we expected, to be honest.
It was funny how fate played with our life. Twice. Yoona left me twice. She disappeared again out of sudden. Without even saying goodbye. She just left, leaving not even a foot print. November 11th 2011.
By that incident, I concluded that I might better give up on her. I changed. I became a jackass playboy. Never really serious with a girl. Broke up with one to be with another. Number one world's biggest asshole. Enjoyed breaking girls' hearts.
But what they didn't know was, it was all to hide my true self. My true broken self. Yes, I was fragile and broken inside. And the only one who knew about it and collected the pieces of my heart to unite it one together again was Tiffany.
We were never a couple. We were never in a relationship. She was Junhyung's honey, and I was, back then, Shinyeong's babyboo. But no one knew how much we talked in inbox. I reminisced our messages just now and it actually reached 4000 conversations. No one knew how we stood up for each other. No one knew how we cared for each other. No one knew how we reminded each other to eat and study. No one knew how many times we kissed. No one knew how we were the first persons to greet good morning and the last to greet good night every day, each other. No one knew how much we loved each other.
I never remembered the first time we met, or the first time we confessed the words 'I love you' to each other, unlike how I always remembered every single date with Yoona. Perhaps it was because time didn't matter anymore for me. I didn't want anything to tie me and Tiffany up. Not even time. I wanted us to be eternity. Again, to be 'forever'.
But, I guess, God wouldn't let me to feel what 'forever' feels like. A big problem in real life appeared. To be frank, the problem was that my father was diagnosed with lung cancer. My family was not a rich one, except for my ugh... except for a woman I was forced to call 'mom'. When 'mom' was supposed to help father with her finance ability, she refused. It made everything much more difficult. I had to work, and went studying at the same side. It made me a lot busier, and I couldn't go online much more.
I told her about this, and she understood. I decided to leave facebook roleplay. But we actually never said goodbye to each other. Maybe we were just too afraid. Too afraid that we might never get to see each other anymore.
A year had passed since then. I joined twitter roleplay, and yet I still opened up my facebook account once in a while, to see if she was there. But she wasn't. Back then, she frequently wrote on my wall. She said she wanted me to come back. An everyday post started becoming once a week. It drifted to once a month, and finally there was none anymore. Her last post stated that she had quit roleplaying. But she still re-read our old messages. "Our memories are too precious for me to forget. No, I'll keep the messages there. Forever," she said.
I smiled at the post. Now I could understand about 'forever'. Our memories. Even if the time faded, our memories would still be there. Everlasting. Eternal. Forever.
Reading our old messages, I would always laugh to myself. How she was so childish, and so was I. How she motivated me to get a good score by kissing me. How we would call each other 'soulmates'. How I would hug her whenever she said it's cold. How distant meant nothing when we were together.
Now, she has grown up a lot. She has been much more mature, and much prettier. [yes... in real life] She might not know, but I'm always there, seeing her from afar. Seeing how's her condition now. Listening all of her stories in silence. Yes, she will not know. My little girl is not little anymore. And it gives me a relief. I'm sure she's ready to face the real world now. She ever thanked me for I had taught her about life, but I refused the gratitude. Because that time, I hadn't taught her anything. It was when I left her, when we weren't in contact anymore, that I taught her about life. And she still smiled facing it. It means she's successful to learn about what I exactly taught.
"Ha, now.. I don't even know whether it's right to call you my soulmate. -laughs- I don't think we're even soulmates in the first place. It's just all in the rp world, hm? After that paradise thing.. I seriously can't bring myself to believe all the promises and "Iloveyous" in the past. I doubt, honestly. But you should know that I'll never dislike you. You're still mine, and I'm yours." she posted. I smiled. Yes, RP world could be so much dangerous sometimes.
I don't even think we're soulmates from the very first time, because yes, it was only roleplaying. Because I was 'Mir' and she was 'Tiffany'. Because we were someone else, and not even ourselves.
And yet, yes. She's still mine and I'm still hers, even though we actually never had each other. RP world wasn't only RP world. Each person you met, each person you talked to, each person you were close too. Those who hide behind the names of Korean idols, are all unique humanbeings, with their own characters, their own charms, their own flaws. We liked each other, hated each other, in love with each other. And although sometimes it was only 'Mir is in a relationship with Yoona', you know you can't deny your feeling in real life.
To stay in RP world or to leave is 100% your choice. To leave just because you're broken-hearted is also your choice. But to stay because it's still worth staying, is also your choice. Involving real life feeling too much in RP world is dangerous, I know. But it's impossible somehow for not involving it. Correct me if I'm wrong.
And like what she said, She's still mine and I'm still hers. Still. Still for forever. Well, forever might be a little too much. Maybe it's a little less than forever.
Sincerely yours,
Your awesome soulmate
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6. Your DM
(by: Spring)
I’ve been RPing since April 2012 and joined with one of RP agency. But I feel like I’m not belong there, so I move into another agency.Thats was Spring time. In this agency, I met him, the one I loved the most.
He greet me first that time. I don’t really pay attention since he’s already have a girlfriend. But someday, he’s on limit and DMed me. From that DM, we are being close. Everyday, I’ll always check my DM box just to make sure he DMed me. “How are you?”, “How’s your sleep?”, “Have you eat?”. “Don’t be too tired, take proper rest”, “Will you online tonight?” etc just like common convos between us. We share the unique nicknames and we’re getting closer day by day.
Since that DM thing, both of us rarely appear on timeline. Sometimes his couple mentioning him just for asking “Where are you now? I miss you” etc. Deep in my heart, I feel sad. I’m a girl too, and knowing that her couple talking with me in DM just… ah I don’t know, because my ego said I don’t want to break my moment with him.
We’re not really a ‘couple’, but the way he talks to me just like how a boy talks to his girlfriend. I love him so much. This is hard and hurts me so much whenever he appear on timeline and replying all mentions from his couple. I know, this is so wrong. I don’t want to break people relationship. His couple really kind to me, she doesn’t know what happen between me and her couple. And I don’t have a heart for hurting her more than this.
One day he said to me, “dear, I’m getting married with –his couple name- .. “. I feel like crying, and angry and disappointed and all mixed in one. But I can’t do anything since the first time, I’m just his second one. I said “Ahh.. ~ You are getting married? Chukkae, I wish you happiness, my dear.” But the real feeling is, I’m so brokenheart.
He said “can we.. keep it like this? I love you, and I don’t want to loose you, but I meet –his couple name- first, and I cant ask a break up from her, I don’t know why I can’t ask this thing from her.” I said, “No. Enough.. I don’t want to break you guys relationship more than this. Maybe, this is our goodbye. Truthfully, you are the most beautiful thing in my RP life. Loving you is blessing for me, even with this way. I wish I can love you like the others couple do. Saying ‘I love you’ in timeline, send you mention confess, and celebrate our anniversary also marriage in timeline with our members. Be happy, I sincerely bless you and her.”
4 days later, he is getting married. His couple ask me to be her bridesmaid. You don’t have any idea how sad I am. You are being a bridesmaid for the person you loved. Seeing your love make a vow, and kissed his wife with you as a witness. That day, is the last day I saw him. I congratulate them both sincerely. Maybe this is my punishment for loving someone who already taken by other.
So, I deactiving my account and hiatus from RP world for a while. One day, I reactive my account and re-read our DM convos with him. All moments like flashing in my mind. And It bring back all memories. So I check his account and he’s still with her. I missed him, but I also happy for him. Now, I start to RPing again and joined with one of RP agency. With the new life, I found my precious friends, and I’m so happy with it.
Sometimes some people come into your life as blessings, or maybe they come into your life as lessons. Including RP world. That’s true we’re RPing our idol, but when we talk with others, we use our own feeling. Dear, Maybe you are my lessons how to love someone, but also be able to let them go. Sometimes love does not have to be able to have you. And I've experienced it now. Thank you for your love, I’ll always cherish our love. I’m happy for you.
Thanks for the beautiful site, Surumi-chan. I can share my feelings here. Please don’t reveal my username, just tag it by ‘Spring’. Surumi-chan, Jiayou ~ ^^
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He greet me first that time. I don’t really pay attention since he’s already have a girlfriend. But someday, he’s on limit and DMed me. From that DM, we are being close. Everyday, I’ll always check my DM box just to make sure he DMed me. “How are you?”, “How’s your sleep?”, “Have you eat?”. “Don’t be too tired, take proper rest”, “Will you online tonight?” etc just like common convos between us. We share the unique nicknames and we’re getting closer day by day.
Since that DM thing, both of us rarely appear on timeline. Sometimes his couple mentioning him just for asking “Where are you now? I miss you” etc. Deep in my heart, I feel sad. I’m a girl too, and knowing that her couple talking with me in DM just… ah I don’t know, because my ego said I don’t want to break my moment with him.
We’re not really a ‘couple’, but the way he talks to me just like how a boy talks to his girlfriend. I love him so much. This is hard and hurts me so much whenever he appear on timeline and replying all mentions from his couple. I know, this is so wrong. I don’t want to break people relationship. His couple really kind to me, she doesn’t know what happen between me and her couple. And I don’t have a heart for hurting her more than this.
One day he said to me, “dear, I’m getting married with –his couple name- .. “. I feel like crying, and angry and disappointed and all mixed in one. But I can’t do anything since the first time, I’m just his second one. I said “Ahh.. ~ You are getting married? Chukkae, I wish you happiness, my dear.” But the real feeling is, I’m so brokenheart.
He said “can we.. keep it like this? I love you, and I don’t want to loose you, but I meet –his couple name- first, and I cant ask a break up from her, I don’t know why I can’t ask this thing from her.” I said, “No. Enough.. I don’t want to break you guys relationship more than this. Maybe, this is our goodbye. Truthfully, you are the most beautiful thing in my RP life. Loving you is blessing for me, even with this way. I wish I can love you like the others couple do. Saying ‘I love you’ in timeline, send you mention confess, and celebrate our anniversary also marriage in timeline with our members. Be happy, I sincerely bless you and her.”
4 days later, he is getting married. His couple ask me to be her bridesmaid. You don’t have any idea how sad I am. You are being a bridesmaid for the person you loved. Seeing your love make a vow, and kissed his wife with you as a witness. That day, is the last day I saw him. I congratulate them both sincerely. Maybe this is my punishment for loving someone who already taken by other.
So, I deactiving my account and hiatus from RP world for a while. One day, I reactive my account and re-read our DM convos with him. All moments like flashing in my mind. And It bring back all memories. So I check his account and he’s still with her. I missed him, but I also happy for him. Now, I start to RPing again and joined with one of RP agency. With the new life, I found my precious friends, and I’m so happy with it.
Sometimes some people come into your life as blessings, or maybe they come into your life as lessons. Including RP world. That’s true we’re RPing our idol, but when we talk with others, we use our own feeling. Dear, Maybe you are my lessons how to love someone, but also be able to let them go. Sometimes love does not have to be able to have you. And I've experienced it now. Thank you for your love, I’ll always cherish our love. I’m happy for you.
Thanks for the beautiful site, Surumi-chan. I can share my feelings here. Please don’t reveal my username, just tag it by ‘Spring’. Surumi-chan, Jiayou ~ ^^
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7. Story of my RP Life
(by:ClassifyMe5)
Hello readers and of course my favorite admin of all time, Surumi-Chan !
Yes, I'll be writing story of my rp life~
Feel free to NOT read it if it waste your time but if it doesn't, feel free to continue reading it :)
Back in the time in November 2011 where I started to rp an idol. Actually I don't know what's rp or roleplay means after I searched it on google XD (LOL). I still remember my first rp account is Yuri. Yes, SNSD's Yuri because she's my first female bias. Followed by my second, third female biases and my first male bias who are 2NE1's Park Bom, SNSD's Sunny and SJ's Sungmin. (.__.b) OTL.. My first ever male rp account! It was quite difficult to rp a male because you have to be cool, awesome and you can't be girlish like what girl does~ *giggles* That time I was roleplaying in facebook account. I've been in relationship more than 3 times actually... I don't remember who were the boys. e.o But.. our relationship won't last long :/ Then after a month, I quit rp as an idol, being single again and changed to an ulzzang rp instead. My first ulzzang rp is a chinese~ named Chen Yue known as Kingboo. You better check her out, she's very pretty ;). Not many rp and people know her because she's from China and.. Yeah.. That's it I guess. e.o I thought she have a English name called Jessica but it's fake.
Soon~ There's one guy, he's really cute and funny~ *smiles* He rp as Jonghyun from SHINee. I still remember his rp name~ I think it's Kim Jonghyun(Pah). Yeah~ Haha XD He's lonely and he wants a girlfriend so then his friend(a girl. She add me as friend ouo) post on a group written "Any yeoja want Kim Jonghyun?" I'm the first to saw her post and I comment with a speed "Me! :)". (OTL haha) She then introduce him to me and I thank her~ Later on, this is me and his conversation.
He: Hi~
Me: Hello :)
He: Hmmmmmmm~
Me: How are you? :)
He: Hmmmmmmmmmm~
Me: Haha I know you're bored XD
He: Yes
Me: Whatcha wanna do? :3
He: I don't know. Entertain me.
I'll stopped until there *grins*. Slowly and slowly~ Time passes~ We fall in love with each other and we start dating. *nods* He's a really truthful, kind and caring guy that you can hang out with. Unlike other guys where they're " nappeun " and ask for... you know... *nods* He's the best guy I've ever dated :) Furthermore, after a week of relationship, I decided to leave rp world because it affected to my life *sigh* I don't know how to explain this but.. I just wanna quit roleplaying~ I'd messaged him saying I'm sorry and blablablablabla~ I hope you can find a better girl. I deactivated my account without waiting for his reply. I doesn't know what's love means that time because I'm not mature enough so I don't really understands what's love.
Soon year 2012~ I wanted to go back with my roleplay life so I reactivated my ulzzang rp account and BAM! He was with a girl... I was upset at first but then.. I understands him. That's the time where I knew what's love means~ I literally cried.. It's weird that roleplay life really does affected our real life... I thought of greeting him saying Hi~ It's been a long time.. but I can't.. I just felt soo soo sorry towards him.. Till then, I stopped my rp life and move on to my real life~
For a long time, after 4 months, April, I come back to my roleplay life again~ I see now twitter rp is trending so I decided to start my new roleplay life in twitter. My first rp account is Juniel~ I found her cute so I wanna rp her XD I'm not a solo rp so I joined a newly created rp agency. I don't wanna reveal that agency name but it's already been closed ^^ The account still exist tho~ It used to be @MacaroonRP but then changed into c..... bla bla. *grins* I ain't gonna reveal it.! So I met lots of friends there~ They're all awesome but until that agency reached about 100+ rp e.o I'm being ignored... Everyone ignored me except for my all time friend who were always with me, helping me and wouldn't ignore me :') She's awesome! <3 Hmm.. Should I tell you who was she? Nuhh~ s.e.c.r.e.t *smirks* Haha~ I'm wondering if she was reading my story now~ I do really miss her~ I can't find her account anymore :'( I think she already deactivated...
Soon~ I deactivated my Juniel account and create a new one. I have my own agency now, I created my own agency, everyone in my agency are friendly :') I'm living good in my roleplay life now~ I'm in a relationship with "someone" He's... someone. Yes, his name is someone. *laughs* I'm just missing my old friends, my ex-boyfriend, Jonghyun.. If he's reading my story right now, I'd be glad to :') This is my chance to say sorry to him through writing my story here ^^
" Jonghyun ah~ I'm sorry... I'm so sorry.. :') *bows* Hope you're enjoying your roleplay life now like me ^^ If there's a miracle, maybe we can talk to each other again~ "
So... That's it.! My story of my rp life :")
To my readers who has read until the end here, I thank you for reading it ^^ And.. can you do me a favor? Hashtag " #ClassifyMe5 " and tweet your comments on my story in twitter :) I wanna see how many rp had read my story~ It'll be meaningful to me *nods* Thanks <3
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Dear Surumi,
I don't know if you still remember me but.. I'm always following you since your 300+ followers ~!
Your the best admin! <3
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" Tears falling.. My heart aching.. I don't feel good " quote by: ClassifyMe5
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Yes, I'll be writing story of my rp life~
Feel free to NOT read it if it waste your time but if it doesn't, feel free to continue reading it :)
Back in the time in November 2011 where I started to rp an idol. Actually I don't know what's rp or roleplay means after I searched it on google XD (LOL). I still remember my first rp account is Yuri. Yes, SNSD's Yuri because she's my first female bias. Followed by my second, third female biases and my first male bias who are 2NE1's Park Bom, SNSD's Sunny and SJ's Sungmin. (.__.b) OTL.. My first ever male rp account! It was quite difficult to rp a male because you have to be cool, awesome and you can't be girlish like what girl does~ *giggles* That time I was roleplaying in facebook account. I've been in relationship more than 3 times actually... I don't remember who were the boys. e.o But.. our relationship won't last long :/ Then after a month, I quit rp as an idol, being single again and changed to an ulzzang rp instead. My first ulzzang rp is a chinese~ named Chen Yue known as Kingboo. You better check her out, she's very pretty ;). Not many rp and people know her because she's from China and.. Yeah.. That's it I guess. e.o I thought she have a English name called Jessica but it's fake.
Soon~ There's one guy, he's really cute and funny~ *smiles* He rp as Jonghyun from SHINee. I still remember his rp name~ I think it's Kim Jonghyun(Pah). Yeah~ Haha XD He's lonely and he wants a girlfriend so then his friend(a girl. She add me as friend ouo) post on a group written "Any yeoja want Kim Jonghyun?" I'm the first to saw her post and I comment with a speed "Me! :)". (OTL haha) She then introduce him to me and I thank her~ Later on, this is me and his conversation.
He: Hi~
Me: Hello :)
He: Hmmmmmmm~
Me: How are you? :)
He: Hmmmmmmmmmm~
Me: Haha I know you're bored XD
He: Yes
Me: Whatcha wanna do? :3
He: I don't know. Entertain me.
I'll stopped until there *grins*. Slowly and slowly~ Time passes~ We fall in love with each other and we start dating. *nods* He's a really truthful, kind and caring guy that you can hang out with. Unlike other guys where they're " nappeun " and ask for... you know... *nods* He's the best guy I've ever dated :) Furthermore, after a week of relationship, I decided to leave rp world because it affected to my life *sigh* I don't know how to explain this but.. I just wanna quit roleplaying~ I'd messaged him saying I'm sorry and blablablablabla~ I hope you can find a better girl. I deactivated my account without waiting for his reply. I doesn't know what's love means that time because I'm not mature enough so I don't really understands what's love.
Soon year 2012~ I wanted to go back with my roleplay life so I reactivated my ulzzang rp account and BAM! He was with a girl... I was upset at first but then.. I understands him. That's the time where I knew what's love means~ I literally cried.. It's weird that roleplay life really does affected our real life... I thought of greeting him saying Hi~ It's been a long time.. but I can't.. I just felt soo soo sorry towards him.. Till then, I stopped my rp life and move on to my real life~
For a long time, after 4 months, April, I come back to my roleplay life again~ I see now twitter rp is trending so I decided to start my new roleplay life in twitter. My first rp account is Juniel~ I found her cute so I wanna rp her XD I'm not a solo rp so I joined a newly created rp agency. I don't wanna reveal that agency name but it's already been closed ^^ The account still exist tho~ It used to be @MacaroonRP but then changed into c..... bla bla. *grins* I ain't gonna reveal it.! So I met lots of friends there~ They're all awesome but until that agency reached about 100+ rp e.o I'm being ignored... Everyone ignored me except for my all time friend who were always with me, helping me and wouldn't ignore me :') She's awesome! <3 Hmm.. Should I tell you who was she? Nuhh~ s.e.c.r.e.t *smirks* Haha~ I'm wondering if she was reading my story now~ I do really miss her~ I can't find her account anymore :'( I think she already deactivated...
Soon~ I deactivated my Juniel account and create a new one. I have my own agency now, I created my own agency, everyone in my agency are friendly :') I'm living good in my roleplay life now~ I'm in a relationship with "someone" He's... someone. Yes, his name is someone. *laughs* I'm just missing my old friends, my ex-boyfriend, Jonghyun.. If he's reading my story right now, I'd be glad to :') This is my chance to say sorry to him through writing my story here ^^
" Jonghyun ah~ I'm sorry... I'm so sorry.. :') *bows* Hope you're enjoying your roleplay life now like me ^^ If there's a miracle, maybe we can talk to each other again~ "
So... That's it.! My story of my rp life :")
To my readers who has read until the end here, I thank you for reading it ^^ And.. can you do me a favor? Hashtag " #ClassifyMe5 " and tweet your comments on my story in twitter :) I wanna see how many rp had read my story~ It'll be meaningful to me *nods* Thanks <3
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Dear Surumi,
I don't know if you still remember me but.. I'm always following you since your 300+ followers ~!
Your the best admin! <3
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" Tears falling.. My heart aching.. I don't feel good " quote by: ClassifyMe5
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8. Drama Queens
(by: APINK_HYookyung)
Hello, Surumi-chan! How are you doing today? Happy 12/12/12! <3
So, where should I start?
Hmm… I forgot when I first joined RP but the memorable one was when I joined an international RP. Some said that in international RP, it was less OOC and I was really curious on how was it like RP-ing there. I was Apink’s Yookyung. Honestly, I liked Apink but I wasn’t really into them so much back then. Because of RP-ing Apink member, however, I became so interested in Apink too! Look at me now; I’m an Apink stan and Yookyung-biased! /cheers/
It was nice there. The members and admins were super friendly. The people there didn’t reveal or talk too much about their RL and it was fun, for me, to act out like the real idol there. Because of them, it was hard for me, at first, to separate from my twitter OTL.
I was feeling comfortable there. Seriously. I thought that I would never move out or deact from there. I thought.
But one thing I can’t tolerate from that RP. Dramas. Like serioulsy, there were so many dramas.
I wasn’t sure how it started but there was Hye and Tao, my future boyfriend. Tao was really close with me – we were friends and we liked teasing each others. H was so clingy to him and I was jealous. I know how ridiculous that sounded, okay… And there was Min and Li (who were Hye’s sisters in RL or whatever). One day they said something about Tao hurting Hye. I was like ‘what the—’. I didn’t get their message at first and then I realized. Maybe it was all because Hye liked Tao and all. There was also Hwa and Namu. That couple relationship with the three of them was nice at first, but Hwa was bashed by them all of a sudden…
And then it began. The three of them began bashing me, Tao, Hwa, Namu, and the others. I was one of the people they bashed and it hurt so much. I was so down that time. I was afraid to come out to TL, all I did was staying in DM. And Tao was there. We were so close when that happened. I was lucky to have someone to count on, I guess. We became closer since that drama and we began dating not so long after that.
The drama ended, somehow, thanks to Namu and the admins who took the initiative to sort the big problem out. Well, it ended. Somehow.
Life went on, I guess. And once again I wasn’t sure when it became as quiet as a ghost town there. Some left in hiatus, some decided to deact.
And the other bashing began again. Oh God.
No, it wasn’t me or the people close to me this time. There was Sung, who was friends (or whatever for all I care) for the three people I mentioned before, who bashed again. She started bashing people out of the agency too. God, I didn’t know if you would believe me or not, but gosh, she just literally creates dramas everywhere she goes.
All those people just ruin their idols’ image! Ugh.
But now, I deacted. The reason was mainly because of them and because from the bunch of admins (some were inactive, some were slipping out of inactive-active status) we had, they did not take any initiatives to warn or unverify those people. I had enough. That was all, I guess. I hope everything made sense hahaha.
Oh btw I’m really happy that you created this weebly acc, Surumi-chan! Kekeke~ all the best for you and @TheRoleplayLife! Hwaiting! <33
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So, where should I start?
Hmm… I forgot when I first joined RP but the memorable one was when I joined an international RP. Some said that in international RP, it was less OOC and I was really curious on how was it like RP-ing there. I was Apink’s Yookyung. Honestly, I liked Apink but I wasn’t really into them so much back then. Because of RP-ing Apink member, however, I became so interested in Apink too! Look at me now; I’m an Apink stan and Yookyung-biased! /cheers/
It was nice there. The members and admins were super friendly. The people there didn’t reveal or talk too much about their RL and it was fun, for me, to act out like the real idol there. Because of them, it was hard for me, at first, to separate from my twitter OTL.
I was feeling comfortable there. Seriously. I thought that I would never move out or deact from there. I thought.
But one thing I can’t tolerate from that RP. Dramas. Like serioulsy, there were so many dramas.
I wasn’t sure how it started but there was Hye and Tao, my future boyfriend. Tao was really close with me – we were friends and we liked teasing each others. H was so clingy to him and I was jealous. I know how ridiculous that sounded, okay… And there was Min and Li (who were Hye’s sisters in RL or whatever). One day they said something about Tao hurting Hye. I was like ‘what the—’. I didn’t get their message at first and then I realized. Maybe it was all because Hye liked Tao and all. There was also Hwa and Namu. That couple relationship with the three of them was nice at first, but Hwa was bashed by them all of a sudden…
And then it began. The three of them began bashing me, Tao, Hwa, Namu, and the others. I was one of the people they bashed and it hurt so much. I was so down that time. I was afraid to come out to TL, all I did was staying in DM. And Tao was there. We were so close when that happened. I was lucky to have someone to count on, I guess. We became closer since that drama and we began dating not so long after that.
The drama ended, somehow, thanks to Namu and the admins who took the initiative to sort the big problem out. Well, it ended. Somehow.
Life went on, I guess. And once again I wasn’t sure when it became as quiet as a ghost town there. Some left in hiatus, some decided to deact.
And the other bashing began again. Oh God.
No, it wasn’t me or the people close to me this time. There was Sung, who was friends (or whatever for all I care) for the three people I mentioned before, who bashed again. She started bashing people out of the agency too. God, I didn’t know if you would believe me or not, but gosh, she just literally creates dramas everywhere she goes.
All those people just ruin their idols’ image! Ugh.
But now, I deacted. The reason was mainly because of them and because from the bunch of admins (some were inactive, some were slipping out of inactive-active status) we had, they did not take any initiatives to warn or unverify those people. I had enough. That was all, I guess. I hope everything made sense hahaha.
Oh btw I’m really happy that you created this weebly acc, Surumi-chan! Kekeke~ all the best for you and @TheRoleplayLife! Hwaiting! <33
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9. Stupid?
(by: Anon)
Sorry for keeping my identity as secret. I don't want disturbed again by my past if anybody knows I'm writing about this. Hopefully no one realized who I am.
I started it all in June 2012 due to my curiosity. At that time I was like running from the stress from RL and my friend invited me to that place and warned me, "Don't use your real feeling" and "don't let RPW disturb your RL" but I did not take her words seriously. I just wanted to run from RL and find inspiration for my writing. I want to write a novel about the RPW.
Eventually I joined to be a Korean artist. The character of this girl are calm, mature, and use formal language. I became acquainted with many RPs at the agency, finding new friends and even family and I'm happy for it. It was cool can talk with the artist, fantalk, and of course feel like a 'artist'. Until I met my idol's RP. He is a visual of a boy group, his character is much different from the idol which he RPed but somehow I like it. We started close to each other as often online at midnight and writes sad tweets at the same time. But our relationship just friends because he had a couple as I did.
Time passed, we finally changed our status and became father and daughter. I became closer to him, and his couple didn't like our relationship. His relationship with his couple isn't harmonious. They often fought mainly due to excessive jealousy of his couple. But when I decided to go away from him, he couldn't accept it. Finally I decided to take a hiatus to take care of my RL and promised to return. In my hiatus period, I used to stalked his account from PA and somehow felt jealous when I saw his lovey-dovey with his couple. I told this to my RL/RP friend but she said it probably happened because he's RPed as my bias. After a long time it was getting hurt at the sight of their relationship especially when my 'dad' was fought with his couple. I think I wanted to say "just break up with her and be my couple" but that's not possible because I know he just loves me as his daughter. Finally I decided to deact from there and tried to focus on my RL that had left and thought to gone forever from RPW. I thought to continue my intention to write a novel about the RPW but I was too scared to do that. Finally I just write it in the form of short stories and gave the link to my 'dad', but as I guessed he didn't understand the feelings that I wrote in the story.
On my intention to really go out of RPW, I deny it. I went back with other chara and tried to be a couple of my 'dad' on his account in another agency. But once again I was heartbroken because apparently he'll never moved on from his previous couple. Finally I decided to not expect anymore from him and not be too serious when like someone in RPW.
I'm always thinking the way to really go from there, but it looks like I'm not brave enough for that. Because I came up with ignorance, so I didn't know how the way to go.
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I started it all in June 2012 due to my curiosity. At that time I was like running from the stress from RL and my friend invited me to that place and warned me, "Don't use your real feeling" and "don't let RPW disturb your RL" but I did not take her words seriously. I just wanted to run from RL and find inspiration for my writing. I want to write a novel about the RPW.
Eventually I joined to be a Korean artist. The character of this girl are calm, mature, and use formal language. I became acquainted with many RPs at the agency, finding new friends and even family and I'm happy for it. It was cool can talk with the artist, fantalk, and of course feel like a 'artist'. Until I met my idol's RP. He is a visual of a boy group, his character is much different from the idol which he RPed but somehow I like it. We started close to each other as often online at midnight and writes sad tweets at the same time. But our relationship just friends because he had a couple as I did.
Time passed, we finally changed our status and became father and daughter. I became closer to him, and his couple didn't like our relationship. His relationship with his couple isn't harmonious. They often fought mainly due to excessive jealousy of his couple. But when I decided to go away from him, he couldn't accept it. Finally I decided to take a hiatus to take care of my RL and promised to return. In my hiatus period, I used to stalked his account from PA and somehow felt jealous when I saw his lovey-dovey with his couple. I told this to my RL/RP friend but she said it probably happened because he's RPed as my bias. After a long time it was getting hurt at the sight of their relationship especially when my 'dad' was fought with his couple. I think I wanted to say "just break up with her and be my couple" but that's not possible because I know he just loves me as his daughter. Finally I decided to deact from there and tried to focus on my RL that had left and thought to gone forever from RPW. I thought to continue my intention to write a novel about the RPW but I was too scared to do that. Finally I just write it in the form of short stories and gave the link to my 'dad', but as I guessed he didn't understand the feelings that I wrote in the story.
On my intention to really go out of RPW, I deny it. I went back with other chara and tried to be a couple of my 'dad' on his account in another agency. But once again I was heartbroken because apparently he'll never moved on from his previous couple. Finally I decided to not expect anymore from him and not be too serious when like someone in RPW.
I'm always thinking the way to really go from there, but it looks like I'm not brave enough for that. Because I came up with ignorance, so I didn't know how the way to go.
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10. The Heartbreaking Story of My RP Life
(by: Messed_Zinger)
I started roleplaying around September of 2011. I was a free roleplayer for a while, then I decided to belong in an agency. What was that agency? EGO RP. The whole time it was open, only about five people joined. I grew extremely attached to those five people... especially the Soyou and Sunggyu there. I felt like they were the best friends a girl could ever have. Once the agency closed down, I never talked to them again. I couldn't find them. It hurt, a lot to part from what felt like family..
My second RP was Caramel Macchiato RP. Boy, was there a lot of memories. I fell HARD for this guy there. He made me happy. At that time, I was having some emotional issues in RL and I was never happy. But this guy made me feel like the happiest girl in the world. When I decided to confess, he... LEFT the RP. Who does that?!
Afterwards, about a month later, the agency was still up and active. I was loving the RP and all it's unique events etc, then some PSYCHO chick came and ruined everything. She stalked the head admin, threatened her, insulted her, ripped off her work and claimed it as her own.. Like I said. Psycho. So the head admin decided to close the RP down.
She secretly made another RP, Geisha, which she informed us about through DM. Eventually, the psycho chick found her again. So Geisha was shut down.
Why is this sad? Imagine this:
All of your bestest RP friends together in one group, sharing memories, laughing and joking around together. Then all of sudden that gets taken away from you. TWICE.
Eventually, a couple of us made our own separate RP. Happily Messed Up. I never liked the idea. But they went through with it anyways. Eventually, over a hundred members joined and all of us drifted apart.
About two months later, for some reason, everyone in the RP became inactive. Our group and a few others were left. But one by one, the people in our group became inactive.. never came back on... all my friends. The ones I've been with for three-four months. Left just like that.
I miss them. A lot. Even if I was always left out, felt like no one really liked me, etc. I'd gotten too attached. So for my own good, and probably the others too, I left.
I don't even know what happened to some of them. Most of them moved to yet ANOTHER RP made by one of us, but others sort of just disappeared...
I don't even roleplay much any more. I'm afraid of getting too attached. And getting my heart shattered again.
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My second RP was Caramel Macchiato RP. Boy, was there a lot of memories. I fell HARD for this guy there. He made me happy. At that time, I was having some emotional issues in RL and I was never happy. But this guy made me feel like the happiest girl in the world. When I decided to confess, he... LEFT the RP. Who does that?!
Afterwards, about a month later, the agency was still up and active. I was loving the RP and all it's unique events etc, then some PSYCHO chick came and ruined everything. She stalked the head admin, threatened her, insulted her, ripped off her work and claimed it as her own.. Like I said. Psycho. So the head admin decided to close the RP down.
She secretly made another RP, Geisha, which she informed us about through DM. Eventually, the psycho chick found her again. So Geisha was shut down.
Why is this sad? Imagine this:
All of your bestest RP friends together in one group, sharing memories, laughing and joking around together. Then all of sudden that gets taken away from you. TWICE.
Eventually, a couple of us made our own separate RP. Happily Messed Up. I never liked the idea. But they went through with it anyways. Eventually, over a hundred members joined and all of us drifted apart.
About two months later, for some reason, everyone in the RP became inactive. Our group and a few others were left. But one by one, the people in our group became inactive.. never came back on... all my friends. The ones I've been with for three-four months. Left just like that.
I miss them. A lot. Even if I was always left out, felt like no one really liked me, etc. I'd gotten too attached. So for my own good, and probably the others too, I left.
I don't even know what happened to some of them. Most of them moved to yet ANOTHER RP made by one of us, but others sort of just disappeared...
I don't even roleplay much any more. I'm afraid of getting too attached. And getting my heart shattered again.
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11. My Unlucky RP Life
(by: babo ahjussi's couple)
hello, before i start this story, im gonna apologize first for the bad grammar and the bad vocabs ._.v
so now, lemme tell you about my rp life which could be counted as unlucky one . i joined rp at about July 2012, what brought me to rp is, some fanbase RT-ed about agencies and i was like, how will it be like roleplaying ? is it nice ? so tt, i start my role in an agency .
i roleplayed as a gb's maknae . i joined right after 2days that agency was created . so yeah, you can imagine how much member we have, but still, i have so much fun with them . we spammed like insane, until late midnight . i cant lie but it was the best days ever in my rp life which i cant get it anymore nowadays .
at that time, we only have like 4 or 5 boys, but all of them are barely online, except one , which i fell in him . at first, i was just like love bullying everyone, especially the younger one(s), since im so evil -proud- , and i was like the evil queen there -proud again- . and that one time, i ordered(?) my dongsaengs to bully him, which is the only boy online there, and he's like : WHY MEEE, but idc, we keep bullying him harhar .
until that day when someone join, which is a part of this boy's group ((lets call this boy K, and the newcomer by S)) he was so happy that finally a member of his group come, and this S boy joined our agency bcs his crush is here, idk where they met but 2 or 3 days after he joined, he'd alrd in relationship with a girl, ((ex-maknae of a gb, lets call her J)) .
J and S often do their lovey dovey moments in TL, in the day, which its only me and K often online at the day . that day when they're lovey dovey-ing, K tweeted : lovebirds in TL! hurts my eyes ouch! or sth like that . then that S boy replies to him : just have yours too with @-mychara- . and he denied it lol yeah we're not that close at that time .
and idk since when, we became closer, and i care much about him . that time he went on hiatus for 1week, and im kinda sad . he said that he wont be able to online due to bad signal in a place that he gonna go . and i was like, okay ..... :(
and guess what ? he suddenly pops out in my DM! i still remember, that was Friday, and i kept tweeting no matter my first two lessons is computer, and we do tasks, yet i kept trying my best to reply his dm asap, and next is grammar, which teacher is so killer T__T so i told him i'll be back in 2hours and he said, okay, he'll reply my dm later if he got signal . after 2hours, im back and he's still there . we continued our chat until i finished my school, and thats the time that he gotta go T__T .
okay, i'll just skip the other unimportant moments, but the point is, i thought he liked me, because that time he didnt appear on TL, only in DM, but idk if he DM-ing with the others .
but he didnt, not long time after that, we became further(?), barely talk, and yeah, i was like </3
i ever confessed to him, but he liked other girl, so he dated with that girl, and again i feel </3 .
i cheered myself, and i forgot him already . but this agency isnt the same anymore . the people i always spammed with, went on hiatus, busy with their real life . i felt so alone there, but i dont wanna deact, i've deact once but ends up react, i miss that place, even its different now . so that, i just left that acc, but doesnt deact, i still have it until now, and i joined another agency, which the real story begin ....
i joined as a maknae again, different group from my first agency, and i was like ignored there . until he come . lets call him H, he's my bias, third bias actually, but now became second orz . -like people care =_=-
when he first joined, i was so happy that i will be able to make friend, because im counted as new, so i dont talk too much with them, yet this agency's members is so many so yeah ....
back to the story . shorten of the story, then we become closer, and i like him, and i can see that he liked me too .. people ship us as well .. that time he tweeted : i have a crush! XD and people mentioned him : ah i know who! , ah, it must be -my idol chara-, hurry confess to her! and again, he tweeted : i love her! but i dont wanna be this fast! so, im just like, well kay, let it flow ^^
one day, he confessed to me, in DM, bcs i was jailed =_= . i told him : i dare you to do it in TL -evil smirk- . he said he will . and when im unjailed, he disappear =_= and appear again when im JAILED AGAIN .....
but cant wait any longer, he confessed to me, to my jailed acc lol . and that day, we became couple .
i was so happy ^^
we spent about 1week together, he's kinda busy so i always keep my phone near me, waiting for his mention . idc, as long as i can talk to him ..
until that morning, when he suddenly DM-ed me that he gonna go to China, he got scholarship . he asked me whether i want broke up or he change owner . i said, its up to you . i felt so sad that time, but didnt show it .
until suddenly, his cyber-bestie, which also one of our agency's member, spammed, like ... talked bad about me ? i was so mad that time, i DM-ed H, and mad at him directly and blablabla, he asked his bestie, ((lets call her A)) , if she was talking about me yet she denied it . i dont believe in them, until he told me that he had disease, thats why he had to go to China to heal it . he cant continue RP-ing since twitter is blocked in China .. and i was like, i dont care, just do whatever you want . and that is my biggest regretness ever .
after that fought, he moved to TL, and i was like, you seem so happy ? dont you feel anything ? we just fought! so i just went to nap due to my anger .
and what i found once i wake up ? HE DEACT, HE LEFT . i was like JABSKVSNJSSKHWODHEKSIE!! imagine how i felt that time T_T
i was so frustated, he left me without a goodbye, i knew he gonna leave, but idk he'll left directly . i felt so stupid, felt so childish, it wont happened if i ever try to thought a little, if i didnt accused his bestie ... i spammed his deacted acc like a stupid, with my jailed acc . ah yea, anw i deact my acc as well after he left . so yeah here i am, spammed like a stupid, hope he'll suddenly react and replies all my mentions to him .
but hope is just hope, that day, i cant stand it anymore, so i went to his bestie, apologize to her for accusing her . she apologized me, and i beg her to email H, which she said, she'll try, and asked H to use her acc to talk to me since H email-ed her that he's in Korea. i was a little cheered that time, but i waited until evening yet he didnt pop out yet so i asked A, and A gimme a link, twitlonger, which is a letter from him ..
in that later, he told me to forget him, and live my life well, i wanna replied, but A said she cant give me the email because he told her not to share it ..
after that, i still spammed his deacted acc . i told myself to stop but i just cant .. i believed that he will comeback .
16/11 .. right one month after my rl bday .. A DM-ed me to my acc ((i've reacted it and still have it till now)) that he... passed away ..
A DM-ed me his last words which sent to her by email .. i almost cried reading that last letter from him .. i still saved the capture of both his letters to me ..
maybe this story isnt that touchy, im not good in story telling but i've done my best . i just wanna share it with you guys .. my childishness .. ruins everything .
i still cherish him until now, and i dont know what to do, i still cant forget him, even i've told myself to ..
so what shud i do ? what can i do ?
thanks for the time to read my messy story . and sorry for the bad grammar and vocabularies -bows-
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so now, lemme tell you about my rp life which could be counted as unlucky one . i joined rp at about July 2012, what brought me to rp is, some fanbase RT-ed about agencies and i was like, how will it be like roleplaying ? is it nice ? so tt, i start my role in an agency .
i roleplayed as a gb's maknae . i joined right after 2days that agency was created . so yeah, you can imagine how much member we have, but still, i have so much fun with them . we spammed like insane, until late midnight . i cant lie but it was the best days ever in my rp life which i cant get it anymore nowadays .
at that time, we only have like 4 or 5 boys, but all of them are barely online, except one , which i fell in him . at first, i was just like love bullying everyone, especially the younger one(s), since im so evil -proud- , and i was like the evil queen there -proud again- . and that one time, i ordered(?) my dongsaengs to bully him, which is the only boy online there, and he's like : WHY MEEE, but idc, we keep bullying him harhar .
until that day when someone join, which is a part of this boy's group ((lets call this boy K, and the newcomer by S)) he was so happy that finally a member of his group come, and this S boy joined our agency bcs his crush is here, idk where they met but 2 or 3 days after he joined, he'd alrd in relationship with a girl, ((ex-maknae of a gb, lets call her J)) .
J and S often do their lovey dovey moments in TL, in the day, which its only me and K often online at the day . that day when they're lovey dovey-ing, K tweeted : lovebirds in TL! hurts my eyes ouch! or sth like that . then that S boy replies to him : just have yours too with @-mychara- . and he denied it lol yeah we're not that close at that time .
and idk since when, we became closer, and i care much about him . that time he went on hiatus for 1week, and im kinda sad . he said that he wont be able to online due to bad signal in a place that he gonna go . and i was like, okay ..... :(
and guess what ? he suddenly pops out in my DM! i still remember, that was Friday, and i kept tweeting no matter my first two lessons is computer, and we do tasks, yet i kept trying my best to reply his dm asap, and next is grammar, which teacher is so killer T__T so i told him i'll be back in 2hours and he said, okay, he'll reply my dm later if he got signal . after 2hours, im back and he's still there . we continued our chat until i finished my school, and thats the time that he gotta go T__T .
okay, i'll just skip the other unimportant moments, but the point is, i thought he liked me, because that time he didnt appear on TL, only in DM, but idk if he DM-ing with the others .
but he didnt, not long time after that, we became further(?), barely talk, and yeah, i was like </3
i ever confessed to him, but he liked other girl, so he dated with that girl, and again i feel </3 .
i cheered myself, and i forgot him already . but this agency isnt the same anymore . the people i always spammed with, went on hiatus, busy with their real life . i felt so alone there, but i dont wanna deact, i've deact once but ends up react, i miss that place, even its different now . so that, i just left that acc, but doesnt deact, i still have it until now, and i joined another agency, which the real story begin ....
i joined as a maknae again, different group from my first agency, and i was like ignored there . until he come . lets call him H, he's my bias, third bias actually, but now became second orz . -like people care =_=-
when he first joined, i was so happy that i will be able to make friend, because im counted as new, so i dont talk too much with them, yet this agency's members is so many so yeah ....
back to the story . shorten of the story, then we become closer, and i like him, and i can see that he liked me too .. people ship us as well .. that time he tweeted : i have a crush! XD and people mentioned him : ah i know who! , ah, it must be -my idol chara-, hurry confess to her! and again, he tweeted : i love her! but i dont wanna be this fast! so, im just like, well kay, let it flow ^^
one day, he confessed to me, in DM, bcs i was jailed =_= . i told him : i dare you to do it in TL -evil smirk- . he said he will . and when im unjailed, he disappear =_= and appear again when im JAILED AGAIN .....
but cant wait any longer, he confessed to me, to my jailed acc lol . and that day, we became couple .
i was so happy ^^
we spent about 1week together, he's kinda busy so i always keep my phone near me, waiting for his mention . idc, as long as i can talk to him ..
until that morning, when he suddenly DM-ed me that he gonna go to China, he got scholarship . he asked me whether i want broke up or he change owner . i said, its up to you . i felt so sad that time, but didnt show it .
until suddenly, his cyber-bestie, which also one of our agency's member, spammed, like ... talked bad about me ? i was so mad that time, i DM-ed H, and mad at him directly and blablabla, he asked his bestie, ((lets call her A)) , if she was talking about me yet she denied it . i dont believe in them, until he told me that he had disease, thats why he had to go to China to heal it . he cant continue RP-ing since twitter is blocked in China .. and i was like, i dont care, just do whatever you want . and that is my biggest regretness ever .
after that fought, he moved to TL, and i was like, you seem so happy ? dont you feel anything ? we just fought! so i just went to nap due to my anger .
and what i found once i wake up ? HE DEACT, HE LEFT . i was like JABSKVSNJSSKHWODHEKSIE!! imagine how i felt that time T_T
i was so frustated, he left me without a goodbye, i knew he gonna leave, but idk he'll left directly . i felt so stupid, felt so childish, it wont happened if i ever try to thought a little, if i didnt accused his bestie ... i spammed his deacted acc like a stupid, with my jailed acc . ah yea, anw i deact my acc as well after he left . so yeah here i am, spammed like a stupid, hope he'll suddenly react and replies all my mentions to him .
but hope is just hope, that day, i cant stand it anymore, so i went to his bestie, apologize to her for accusing her . she apologized me, and i beg her to email H, which she said, she'll try, and asked H to use her acc to talk to me since H email-ed her that he's in Korea. i was a little cheered that time, but i waited until evening yet he didnt pop out yet so i asked A, and A gimme a link, twitlonger, which is a letter from him ..
in that later, he told me to forget him, and live my life well, i wanna replied, but A said she cant give me the email because he told her not to share it ..
after that, i still spammed his deacted acc . i told myself to stop but i just cant .. i believed that he will comeback .
16/11 .. right one month after my rl bday .. A DM-ed me to my acc ((i've reacted it and still have it till now)) that he... passed away ..
A DM-ed me his last words which sent to her by email .. i almost cried reading that last letter from him .. i still saved the capture of both his letters to me ..
maybe this story isnt that touchy, im not good in story telling but i've done my best . i just wanna share it with you guys .. my childishness .. ruins everything .
i still cherish him until now, and i dont know what to do, i still cant forget him, even i've told myself to ..
so what shud i do ? what can i do ?
thanks for the time to read my messy story . and sorry for the bad grammar and vocabularies -bows-
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12.. My RP Story
(by: Anon)
I started a Zelo rp during B.A.P debut days. I was really clueless after rp-ing to be honest. I know nothing about roleplay. it was confusing. I don't even know about having "couples" or "family" rp. Before I join a rp family, I was a solo roleplayer. I met different solo rps. I met a GPB rp. We become great friends even thou we are quite awkward. But she was nice.
Days passing by, I said I liked her but she thought i was kidding. Well, who knows. I went missing for a month plus due to real life probs. I wanted to deact but i got amazing "fans" who told me not to go since I was the only Zelo rp who's active and really nice.
A month passed, I was okay. And decided join a rp family and became an admin there. My "crush" joined the same rp after I joined. Well her feelings.. started to grow for me. We started dating, and again. I was busy with my school, and i had to deact. I deact without telling her. I only told the head admin. I'm the lowest right? Really. I broke a great girl's heart. I came back since the head admin wants me too. So I did. When I came back, I didn't talk to her. I was ashamed to talk to her. The girls there scolded me - "Why did you come back?" "You're mean." Yes, I knew that.
A few days later, me and her are back to normal. We are just friends. I knew she still have feelings for me. I know. I was too stubborn and stupid not to "noticed". And then, I met a Bora rp. She pretty much noticed how upset I am. She comforted me, and always there for me when I needed someone. I confessed to her that I liked her. So she did, she liked me too. As we started dating, it was my holiday. I had to work full time due to family problems. I even went missing for 2 weeks without telling her. Yet, she still wait for me. She never complained to me.
The head admin told me she don't want me to hurt Bora's feelings. Because of me going missing, I might leave her without saying goodbye. So I tried my best to appear. Things gotten worse, my working time was crazy and barely online... And I kind of lose interest in roleplaying too... and also.. my feelings for Bora is not longer here. It's dead. She's a sweet girl, but I felt nothing for her. I wanted to break up with her, but I got no guts to break a sweet girl's heart. I talked to my hyung, and the head admin. Both of them thinks that I should tell her sooner before I hurt her feelings deeper.
Finally, I told her that I wanted a break up. She said okay. She didn't scold me or anything. She understood. She said she wanted to deact but I'm the reason why she's staying. It was like a bullet shoot at my heart. I was stupid, and thinking that she understood but nope. I broke her heart by this stupid feeling of mine. Not only that, I did more stupid stuff. It hurts her more even tho we broke up. Because I am busy irl. I found out that Bora block me, and forget about me, I assumed. I understood that. Look at the girls. They're so fragile. And I am like a monster for breaking their hearts.
Someone used to tell me "Girls' hearts are fragile. Once its broken, It's like a piece of broken glass."
Today, I look at myself. I told myself to never get in a relationship. No matter what happens. I do not want to be a monster for breaking a girl's heart.
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Days passing by, I said I liked her but she thought i was kidding. Well, who knows. I went missing for a month plus due to real life probs. I wanted to deact but i got amazing "fans" who told me not to go since I was the only Zelo rp who's active and really nice.
A month passed, I was okay. And decided join a rp family and became an admin there. My "crush" joined the same rp after I joined. Well her feelings.. started to grow for me. We started dating, and again. I was busy with my school, and i had to deact. I deact without telling her. I only told the head admin. I'm the lowest right? Really. I broke a great girl's heart. I came back since the head admin wants me too. So I did. When I came back, I didn't talk to her. I was ashamed to talk to her. The girls there scolded me - "Why did you come back?" "You're mean." Yes, I knew that.
A few days later, me and her are back to normal. We are just friends. I knew she still have feelings for me. I know. I was too stubborn and stupid not to "noticed". And then, I met a Bora rp. She pretty much noticed how upset I am. She comforted me, and always there for me when I needed someone. I confessed to her that I liked her. So she did, she liked me too. As we started dating, it was my holiday. I had to work full time due to family problems. I even went missing for 2 weeks without telling her. Yet, she still wait for me. She never complained to me.
The head admin told me she don't want me to hurt Bora's feelings. Because of me going missing, I might leave her without saying goodbye. So I tried my best to appear. Things gotten worse, my working time was crazy and barely online... And I kind of lose interest in roleplaying too... and also.. my feelings for Bora is not longer here. It's dead. She's a sweet girl, but I felt nothing for her. I wanted to break up with her, but I got no guts to break a sweet girl's heart. I talked to my hyung, and the head admin. Both of them thinks that I should tell her sooner before I hurt her feelings deeper.
Finally, I told her that I wanted a break up. She said okay. She didn't scold me or anything. She understood. She said she wanted to deact but I'm the reason why she's staying. It was like a bullet shoot at my heart. I was stupid, and thinking that she understood but nope. I broke her heart by this stupid feeling of mine. Not only that, I did more stupid stuff. It hurts her more even tho we broke up. Because I am busy irl. I found out that Bora block me, and forget about me, I assumed. I understood that. Look at the girls. They're so fragile. And I am like a monster for breaking their hearts.
Someone used to tell me "Girls' hearts are fragile. Once its broken, It's like a piece of broken glass."
Today, I look at myself. I told myself to never get in a relationship. No matter what happens. I do not want to be a monster for breaking a girl's heart.
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13. A little too not over you
(by: Anon)
First of all, I'd like to thank surumi-chan for sharing my rp story.
It all started a few days before the prom night organised by my agency. I can't remember exactly when was it though. I met this girl, I shall name her Youngie to not reveal her identity. She was friendly, cute, sweet, etc. I'd always stalk her profile and chat with her. The day before prom night, I asked her, "Would you go to the prom with me? Cos I would be forever alone if you don't come with me." She, without any hesitation, agreed. I was happy and my heart skipped a beat but I tried not to show it because it'll be embarassing.
It was finally prom night. Yoo was dressed in her pink dress (she was so adorable). And I was in my tux. We enjoyed the party and received an opportunity to dance at the dance floor together. Unfortunately, my connection got cut off for quite a long time and I literally slammed my keyboard. I was so ashamed of myself because I left Yoo at the dance floor.
The next day, everyone were in their calm mood again and I searched for Yoo. I stalked her profile again and saw tweets of hers saying that she was left alone at the dancefloor, etc. I decided to DM her and apologise. "I am so sorry. For leaving you at the dancefloor all on your own." She said, "It's okay. I understand." I was in awe but still disappointed of myself. We talked as per normal after that. I suddenly blurted out, "I love you" to her. She was indeed shock but she said, "I love you too" with a smile. I then, with my courage, asked her to be my girlfriend. She agreed. That was definitely the best day ever.
After weeks past, I had to take semi-hiatus because I had my year-end examinations going on. I felt bad, of course. Because Yoo will be alone while I'm gone. I was always disappearing and it made Yoo think that I'll never come back. So she decided to create a new account and joined another agency. She thought I'll never know. So after a few days, she got into a relationship with another guy in that account. I was disappointed of her and my stupid self.
I eventually came back, but as a different idol. I was scared to face her because I was sure my heart will break. Now, I'm watching her from afar. I'm wondering why can't I just forget her. I concluded, I was just a little too not over her.
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It all started a few days before the prom night organised by my agency. I can't remember exactly when was it though. I met this girl, I shall name her Youngie to not reveal her identity. She was friendly, cute, sweet, etc. I'd always stalk her profile and chat with her. The day before prom night, I asked her, "Would you go to the prom with me? Cos I would be forever alone if you don't come with me." She, without any hesitation, agreed. I was happy and my heart skipped a beat but I tried not to show it because it'll be embarassing.
It was finally prom night. Yoo was dressed in her pink dress (she was so adorable). And I was in my tux. We enjoyed the party and received an opportunity to dance at the dance floor together. Unfortunately, my connection got cut off for quite a long time and I literally slammed my keyboard. I was so ashamed of myself because I left Yoo at the dance floor.
The next day, everyone were in their calm mood again and I searched for Yoo. I stalked her profile again and saw tweets of hers saying that she was left alone at the dancefloor, etc. I decided to DM her and apologise. "I am so sorry. For leaving you at the dancefloor all on your own." She said, "It's okay. I understand." I was in awe but still disappointed of myself. We talked as per normal after that. I suddenly blurted out, "I love you" to her. She was indeed shock but she said, "I love you too" with a smile. I then, with my courage, asked her to be my girlfriend. She agreed. That was definitely the best day ever.
After weeks past, I had to take semi-hiatus because I had my year-end examinations going on. I felt bad, of course. Because Yoo will be alone while I'm gone. I was always disappearing and it made Yoo think that I'll never come back. So she decided to create a new account and joined another agency. She thought I'll never know. So after a few days, she got into a relationship with another guy in that account. I was disappointed of her and my stupid self.
I eventually came back, but as a different idol. I was scared to face her because I was sure my heart will break. Now, I'm watching her from afar. I'm wondering why can't I just forget her. I concluded, I was just a little too not over her.
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14. Experiences of being "Lee Sungmin"
(by: SC_minimin)
Hey Surumi-chan ^^
I'm Sungmin from SexyCityRP that told you was going to send you a story yesterday, ㅋㅋㅋ do you remember me?
You better >:3
Well, I have several stories that I would like to tell and I certainly do want people to read, understand me, and use my story is future reference in rp-ing. Roleplaying sure is a fun thing to do; it really does relief stress and such things but sometimes when it gets personal...things just don't go too well. The first story I'm going to tell is about bringing a roleplay relationship into your personal life.
Not long time ago, about 5-4 month, I've dated "Kim Jongwoon" or as you all would know as Super Junior's "Yesung", voice of the group. Noted that I'm always Sungmin in every roleplay, so in this case our couple would be "YeMin" or "YeSungMin".
We started dating out of nowhere, it began with a drama, as how normal relationships would start with (hahaha very funny -_-), but we somehow managed to get through it very quickly. But here's the thing; I'm gay. Although, I wasn't the first person who'd commit a homosexual relationship in that roleplay, but people seem to be hating on myrelationship in particular. I'm the rebel type of person and doesn't care much about haters, so that wasn't a big problem to start with. But about 2 months in, Yesung hyung and I started having this mutual personal feelings towards each other.
We've talked on iMessage (it's a thing on iPhones where you can send messages from an iPhone/iPod/iPad to another iPhone/iPod/iPad {requires iOS6} without text message charges; meaning I can text him over the country) and we seemed to enjoy each other a lot as "A" unnie and "S" saenggie. So on the thirdth month, we started dating each other in real life.
Hyung sent me birthday gifts, and he treated me very well even if we live like across from each other on the earth. We were surely in love. Now, I usually have this thing about trying not to bring a roleplay relationship into real life because of something-- which I will type as the next story--not long before this YeSungMin thing; but I just felt like I could give him a great chance to just, you know, experience love. Note again that we're about 6-7 years apart in age...
On the fourth month, the month where I thought everything would go so well. He texted me early in the morning that he'd found another guy who had been his friend--and they have been dating since OUR third month. I'm not very happy with that, actually. To be exact, I wasn't even happy at all. But was there anything I could do? Nope.
So our story ends there. That was the end of YeSungMin. We never did continue to be friends either.
A couple days later...he left the rp.
Not long before the story you've just read, I've dated this particular someone. Our relationship started since October 25th, 2011 in a roleplay called "DreamKids" which later changed to "DreamKiss" and had been closed down months ago. I was new to roleplaying, I was Lee Taemin, surprisingly. xD and he was Kim Heechul. Super Junior's Kim Heechul. About a week back before the day I met him, I just broke up with a different Heechul, so meeting him is just like using him to forget my old heartbreak--my first heartbreak. Never did I realize a One-Night-Stand could turn into a long lasting relationship. At our third month, we decided to quit roleplaying and enter the real world together. She lives also across the world but we do have sometimes where we can just hang together. We talk on the phone at night for at least 2 hours, we tease eachother, we trust eachother, we were madly in love with each other. She's about 5 years older than me, if I'm not mistaken. We've had many relationship moments together that sometimes I question myself this; "how can such a perfect relationship happen in just a small communicating device?"
But happiness never lasts forever.
I was a big time player, I admit. I never really did stop roleplaying. I secretly joined a different roleplay not long after we left DreamKiss. Since our times are rarely the same, I get really, really lonely a lot and I just feel like having a good company from my friends if I get into a roleplay; so I joined to Story roleplay as Lee Sungmin. That roleplay was pretty much the started of the Sungmin chain. Back to the story; being a player I am, it's usually not just friends that I have for company. I hook up with a lot of people, sometimes it's more than one person in one day (this is one of the reasons why I proclaim myself SlutMin).
The saddest part about secrets are when they're spilled out.
She found out about the roleplay and the people I've hooked up with, we got into a crazy fight, it wasn't even funny. I lost her trust, it was terribly hard to gain back. I tried to promise myself not to do it again, but it just seems like the chain couldn't be stopped. She decided to come into the roleplay with me as Cho Kyuhyun and claimed me as her boyfriend from then so I won't go to anyone else...didn't work so well. I continued on being a you-know-what and hooked up with other guys even when my status clearly says that I was in a relationship. It was until about 3 months later; on our 8th month, that we decided to break up in the roleplay and live as a roleplayer. In our personal lives, we're still together as usual. But that didn't go so well either. Her and I got bored of each other and got bored of the roleplaying life. She stopped roleplaying at the same time that I started getting less active. But during the time that I was getting less active in roleplays, I was getting less active in talking to her and everyone else too. So she found this someone. Someone I know too well. Someone I trust too much. They went out in the middle of our 8th month and kept it a secret until I found out in instagram by myself that they're dating.
She didn't even say goodbye.
After the horrible break ups. I've met with this playboy, another Cho Kyuhyun. He wasn't the greatest person you'll ever meet, in fact, he was horrible. But the world just has this logic of making you fall in love with the most horrible person in the whole world. I fell in love with him. So much that I would give up anything for him. I met him early in March 2012. He was just a dramatic little boy, in his break-up stage with his boyfriend, Choi Siwon. I didn't exactly fall in love with him at first sight, but it somehow grew along the line of taking care of him and being a good brother. Siwon wasn't a good person at all, based on the information given by Kyuhyun. I felt pity for him; I stayed there for him; I was doing everything I could to help him feel better. I encouraged him to leave Siwon. The stories he told me was just terrible that I couldn't stand it...he did. He broke up with Siwon--for me. A little romance here and there between Kyuhyun and I started, I didn't think that just a one-night-stand could turn into something bigger. But here comes the saddest part. When he asked me out, this was the first thing he told me... "You know, I have 8 different people I'm dating right now."
If you were me at the time, you would probably slap him in the face and tell him to get lost, but no. I loved him too much to lose this chance of being with the one I love, so I agreed in going out with him with one condition; there will be no one of yours who interferes with me in any way shape or form. We gave in our agreement and dated since then. It was around the middle of April that we actually started dating and getting serious in the relationship and such. But not long after (only about one month that the relationship lasted), Heechul hyung ( I don't remember the name of the roleplay he was in ) added me as a friend. I didn't care much because I've played King (blind dares) with him and Kyuhyun and my Sungmin twin before, so accepted the request.
The conversation between Heechul hyung and I was very funny, I really love talking to him until he started asking questions about Kyuhyun. He started asking me "what's Kyuhyun like? I heard you're really close to him..." I didn't think that the questions would lead to something I wish I shouldn't have known.
KHC: Minnie-ah...I don't think I'll be able to walk tomorrow ><'
Me: Waeyo, hyung?
KHC: Well...last night... .///////.
Me: Omo! With who? -chuckles-
KHC: Kyuhyunnie~
At the name mentioned, my heart slowly cracked. What hurts me most is that he didn't finish his sentence at Kyuhyun's name, but he went further in the details of how many rounds and such information that I certainly did not need to know. By the time I realized how hurt I was, tears were already rolling down my cheeks. It hurts a lot to know. Thinking back to the promise we made when he asked me out, I hurriedly said to him, "Get that b**** out of my life right now before I kill him."
Kyuhyun didn't hesitate to apologize and talk to Heechul hyung about it immediately. But that wasn't the end of the story.
About 5-6 days later, I was pulled into a group chat by Kyuhyun. The people in the group chat only included him, me, and Heechul hyung. He started off the conversation with a sentence that completely made me go insane...:
"Look, jagiya (baby/honey)! It's slutmin~ *smiles and wraps an arm around Heechul*"
I didn't reply to the messages they kept sending me. All I did was read the insults coming from Kyuhyun and Heechul and cried. The insults grew more and more intense as they received no replies, whatsoever, from me. At that point, my hands were already frozen and had no idea what to do. He said something...probably the most painful thing I would ever want to hear from the one I love. And that was it; I left the chat room and deleted them out of my contact list without a single goodbye to any of them. And those same exact words will always be repeated in my heart from that day until forever.
But at the same time...behind those words...still lies the person I love most until this day.
"Asked you out? Ha! Liar! Why would I ask YOU out? A person like you only matters as a sex toy for me, slutmin."
I would love to tell you more stories of my experience of being Lee Sungmin, I've been through so much with a lot of OTPs that it's probably going to take 20 pages. One year with the internet can create so much memories, happy and sad. Facts for the day, hehehe~
I wish to anyone who reads this to keep these stories in mind and to use this as a future reference of what kinds of people are out there. Just remember one last thing before you move on to the next story... rage never gets you anywhere; only forgiveness can.
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I'm Sungmin from SexyCityRP that told you was going to send you a story yesterday, ㅋㅋㅋ do you remember me?
You better >:3
Well, I have several stories that I would like to tell and I certainly do want people to read, understand me, and use my story is future reference in rp-ing. Roleplaying sure is a fun thing to do; it really does relief stress and such things but sometimes when it gets personal...things just don't go too well. The first story I'm going to tell is about bringing a roleplay relationship into your personal life.
Not long time ago, about 5-4 month, I've dated "Kim Jongwoon" or as you all would know as Super Junior's "Yesung", voice of the group. Noted that I'm always Sungmin in every roleplay, so in this case our couple would be "YeMin" or "YeSungMin".
We started dating out of nowhere, it began with a drama, as how normal relationships would start with (hahaha very funny -_-), but we somehow managed to get through it very quickly. But here's the thing; I'm gay. Although, I wasn't the first person who'd commit a homosexual relationship in that roleplay, but people seem to be hating on myrelationship in particular. I'm the rebel type of person and doesn't care much about haters, so that wasn't a big problem to start with. But about 2 months in, Yesung hyung and I started having this mutual personal feelings towards each other.
We've talked on iMessage (it's a thing on iPhones where you can send messages from an iPhone/iPod/iPad to another iPhone/iPod/iPad {requires iOS6} without text message charges; meaning I can text him over the country) and we seemed to enjoy each other a lot as "A" unnie and "S" saenggie. So on the thirdth month, we started dating each other in real life.
Hyung sent me birthday gifts, and he treated me very well even if we live like across from each other on the earth. We were surely in love. Now, I usually have this thing about trying not to bring a roleplay relationship into real life because of something-- which I will type as the next story--not long before this YeSungMin thing; but I just felt like I could give him a great chance to just, you know, experience love. Note again that we're about 6-7 years apart in age...
On the fourth month, the month where I thought everything would go so well. He texted me early in the morning that he'd found another guy who had been his friend--and they have been dating since OUR third month. I'm not very happy with that, actually. To be exact, I wasn't even happy at all. But was there anything I could do? Nope.
So our story ends there. That was the end of YeSungMin. We never did continue to be friends either.
A couple days later...he left the rp.
Not long before the story you've just read, I've dated this particular someone. Our relationship started since October 25th, 2011 in a roleplay called "DreamKids" which later changed to "DreamKiss" and had been closed down months ago. I was new to roleplaying, I was Lee Taemin, surprisingly. xD and he was Kim Heechul. Super Junior's Kim Heechul. About a week back before the day I met him, I just broke up with a different Heechul, so meeting him is just like using him to forget my old heartbreak--my first heartbreak. Never did I realize a One-Night-Stand could turn into a long lasting relationship. At our third month, we decided to quit roleplaying and enter the real world together. She lives also across the world but we do have sometimes where we can just hang together. We talk on the phone at night for at least 2 hours, we tease eachother, we trust eachother, we were madly in love with each other. She's about 5 years older than me, if I'm not mistaken. We've had many relationship moments together that sometimes I question myself this; "how can such a perfect relationship happen in just a small communicating device?"
But happiness never lasts forever.
I was a big time player, I admit. I never really did stop roleplaying. I secretly joined a different roleplay not long after we left DreamKiss. Since our times are rarely the same, I get really, really lonely a lot and I just feel like having a good company from my friends if I get into a roleplay; so I joined to Story roleplay as Lee Sungmin. That roleplay was pretty much the started of the Sungmin chain. Back to the story; being a player I am, it's usually not just friends that I have for company. I hook up with a lot of people, sometimes it's more than one person in one day (this is one of the reasons why I proclaim myself SlutMin).
The saddest part about secrets are when they're spilled out.
She found out about the roleplay and the people I've hooked up with, we got into a crazy fight, it wasn't even funny. I lost her trust, it was terribly hard to gain back. I tried to promise myself not to do it again, but it just seems like the chain couldn't be stopped. She decided to come into the roleplay with me as Cho Kyuhyun and claimed me as her boyfriend from then so I won't go to anyone else...didn't work so well. I continued on being a you-know-what and hooked up with other guys even when my status clearly says that I was in a relationship. It was until about 3 months later; on our 8th month, that we decided to break up in the roleplay and live as a roleplayer. In our personal lives, we're still together as usual. But that didn't go so well either. Her and I got bored of each other and got bored of the roleplaying life. She stopped roleplaying at the same time that I started getting less active. But during the time that I was getting less active in roleplays, I was getting less active in talking to her and everyone else too. So she found this someone. Someone I know too well. Someone I trust too much. They went out in the middle of our 8th month and kept it a secret until I found out in instagram by myself that they're dating.
She didn't even say goodbye.
After the horrible break ups. I've met with this playboy, another Cho Kyuhyun. He wasn't the greatest person you'll ever meet, in fact, he was horrible. But the world just has this logic of making you fall in love with the most horrible person in the whole world. I fell in love with him. So much that I would give up anything for him. I met him early in March 2012. He was just a dramatic little boy, in his break-up stage with his boyfriend, Choi Siwon. I didn't exactly fall in love with him at first sight, but it somehow grew along the line of taking care of him and being a good brother. Siwon wasn't a good person at all, based on the information given by Kyuhyun. I felt pity for him; I stayed there for him; I was doing everything I could to help him feel better. I encouraged him to leave Siwon. The stories he told me was just terrible that I couldn't stand it...he did. He broke up with Siwon--for me. A little romance here and there between Kyuhyun and I started, I didn't think that just a one-night-stand could turn into something bigger. But here comes the saddest part. When he asked me out, this was the first thing he told me... "You know, I have 8 different people I'm dating right now."
If you were me at the time, you would probably slap him in the face and tell him to get lost, but no. I loved him too much to lose this chance of being with the one I love, so I agreed in going out with him with one condition; there will be no one of yours who interferes with me in any way shape or form. We gave in our agreement and dated since then. It was around the middle of April that we actually started dating and getting serious in the relationship and such. But not long after (only about one month that the relationship lasted), Heechul hyung ( I don't remember the name of the roleplay he was in ) added me as a friend. I didn't care much because I've played King (blind dares) with him and Kyuhyun and my Sungmin twin before, so accepted the request.
The conversation between Heechul hyung and I was very funny, I really love talking to him until he started asking questions about Kyuhyun. He started asking me "what's Kyuhyun like? I heard you're really close to him..." I didn't think that the questions would lead to something I wish I shouldn't have known.
KHC: Minnie-ah...I don't think I'll be able to walk tomorrow ><'
Me: Waeyo, hyung?
KHC: Well...last night... .///////.
Me: Omo! With who? -chuckles-
KHC: Kyuhyunnie~
At the name mentioned, my heart slowly cracked. What hurts me most is that he didn't finish his sentence at Kyuhyun's name, but he went further in the details of how many rounds and such information that I certainly did not need to know. By the time I realized how hurt I was, tears were already rolling down my cheeks. It hurts a lot to know. Thinking back to the promise we made when he asked me out, I hurriedly said to him, "Get that b**** out of my life right now before I kill him."
Kyuhyun didn't hesitate to apologize and talk to Heechul hyung about it immediately. But that wasn't the end of the story.
About 5-6 days later, I was pulled into a group chat by Kyuhyun. The people in the group chat only included him, me, and Heechul hyung. He started off the conversation with a sentence that completely made me go insane...:
"Look, jagiya (baby/honey)! It's slutmin~ *smiles and wraps an arm around Heechul*"
I didn't reply to the messages they kept sending me. All I did was read the insults coming from Kyuhyun and Heechul and cried. The insults grew more and more intense as they received no replies, whatsoever, from me. At that point, my hands were already frozen and had no idea what to do. He said something...probably the most painful thing I would ever want to hear from the one I love. And that was it; I left the chat room and deleted them out of my contact list without a single goodbye to any of them. And those same exact words will always be repeated in my heart from that day until forever.
But at the same time...behind those words...still lies the person I love most until this day.
"Asked you out? Ha! Liar! Why would I ask YOU out? A person like you only matters as a sex toy for me, slutmin."
I would love to tell you more stories of my experience of being Lee Sungmin, I've been through so much with a lot of OTPs that it's probably going to take 20 pages. One year with the internet can create so much memories, happy and sad. Facts for the day, hehehe~
I wish to anyone who reads this to keep these stories in mind and to use this as a future reference of what kinds of people are out there. Just remember one last thing before you move on to the next story... rage never gets you anywhere; only forgiveness can.
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15. My RP Life Story
(@BB_mjmonkey)
Hi surumi-chan, I want to share my story here ^^
I warn you, my story is long kkk and don’t get offended with what I’m gonna say later in the end of the story ^^
Let’s start… please click “Continue” ( what am I doing kkk )
One day my friend asked me to join him in Facebook roleplay and I was like “Yeah? Okay why not?” tbh, I don’t really like social networking ( but im addicted to it now kkk just twitter ^^ ). I was roleplaying as Lee Joon from MBLAQ because at that time MBLAQ got my attention more than others ( and because of “Joon” name kkk~ maybe some peoples who knows me will know “why”) back to the story /cough/ so like the others newbie, I joined an agency, talking with others. Well, they are friendly people, they take care of newbie well, show them how to do fan talk and do roleplaying well.
Then there’s a girl, she was roleplaying as ulzzang from China. Should I say her name? Kkkk~ her initial is “D”. I forgot why, but we became a couple. I bought her teddy-doll and she named it “Joonie” or “Joobie”? I forget kkk~ ( I’m such a grandpa otl ). Then, I should leaving RPW because things in real life. I told her “Let’s break up..” and she said “Why?” I don’t know what reason should I say, then I said “I should leaving RPW because I’m busy.” She replied me with “Just say that you don’t love me anymore!” I try to not hurt her feeling, I don’t want to be rude. Finally she said “Bye.” I just sighed in real life and signed out.
Sometimes. I opened my acc and saw her wall. It was heartbreaking how she posted that she is hurting and else. What can I do? I sighed again and never open my acc anymore. 1 month after that, I opened my acc and accepted friend-requested. There’s Jessica.. We always wall-ing #? Kkk~ and I found out that we were from the same country. So we starting to talk in our language, we become close and I feel comfortable with her. Our relationship was just like “Brother to Sister” not more than that. Then, I posting something in FYHP ( If you ever rp-ed in FB, you must be know this “popular” place hahaha ) well, FYHP was really err.. mess? Kkk~ I fanboying over Min from Miss A at that time and a Min RP commenting at my posting.
I added her, I like her. We become a couple #? Haha. I like to send her sweet things, she is… Just different… She is not acting cute, she is crazy ( so do I ) we always hyper. I like to hug her and squeeze her cheeks ( because the real Min has chubby cheeks kkk ) and tbh I like short girl kkk. Then one day, “D” online and sent me a message “Congrats, I hope you happy with her.” Bam.. my heart was like “I'm sorry.” I replied her “Thanks ^^” and she never replied me again. Hng.. And things going crazy again. I should leave RPW. I explained all to Min, I don’t want her to get hurt. She said “Okay ^^” I never hope she will fully understand. We broke-up when we already engaged. I leaved again.
3 months after that, I opened my acc, I found that Min locked her acc and she was deleted me from her friend-list. I just smiled. Then, I fell in love with my best friend in real life ( she was rp-ing as Jia from Miss A ) not so long, I confessed to her. We became a couple and I decided to leave RPW. About 8 months, I should go from my country. I got a chance to studied aboard and I think “I will never got the second chance.” I broke-up with her, she was supporting me. We always keep contact and until 2 months no news from her. I comeback to my country and found out she stills playing RP and had a couple. My heart is broken? Kkk. Then she broke-up with her couple, she wasn’t hurting that deep. She said “This is RPW, what do you hope for? Real relationship? Just use it as experienced. In RPW you will find many characters of people. RPW is dangerous huh? Kkk.” I smiled at her words.
She asked me to join RPW at twitter. My first agency? FW! Kkk. I rp-ing as hyunseung (b2st/beast) and FW “cleaning” the members. I changed into Ray from C-Clown ( when nobody knows C-Clown kkk their songs just fit me. Try to listen “In My Car” guys kkk ) then I got busy, I asked for unverified. Not so long, I joined with Jia and my cousin ( he was rp-ing as Jello (zelo) ) and I changed into Himchan kkkk in SLR ( Second Life Roleplay ) then all members moved to M2S ( we are nomaden RP yeah kkk and I feel comfortable with SLR members haha so I decided to move too). In M2S, I was a DJ for M2S_Twitcast kkk (#H) and I found someone too in M2S /wont say her name, she will thinks I’m weird because mentioning her name haha, but hey ma Cherie (sherri) kkk/. But M2S closed down and I’m here in BlackButler_RP kkk. Well, I found many characters like Jia said. Fun one, cold one, and worst.
Well, “Don’t use your feeling in RPW” you can’t tho, you will always use it. For me “Prepare your wall first if you want to join RPW. You should know the limit.” And these days, I found many rp-ers ruined their idol image for bashing people or else ( you guys know what I’m talking about. ) I just want to say let’s have fun in RPW, let’s treat each other nicely like what the old rp-ers do. Don’t treat the others badly and hurt their feeling. Eventho it’s just RPW and when you bashing people, their heart will hurting too. Their REAL heart. So please, have fun and protect each other. We are family ^^ well not real family, just RP. But you may don’t know, my friend, he met his wife in RPW so /shrugs/ haha. Well, I never say that I’m good at roleplaying but at least let’s treat each other nicely okay? I’m still learning too how to be a nice person in RPW kkk. Oh yeah like surumi’s quote, once I read it about “You’re not going to in RPW forever.” I 100% agree ^^. Thanks to FW Family, SLR Family, BC Family, BB Family and my friends in RPW, you guys are rock! \m/ love, peace, and keep loving food #?
By: Kwak Min Jun’s RP
Note: sorry for my bad grammar and the bad story, smile and cheer up, let’s be friend too, just mention me /aim at my username/ kkk ^^ I do bite.
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I warn you, my story is long kkk and don’t get offended with what I’m gonna say later in the end of the story ^^
Let’s start… please click “Continue” ( what am I doing kkk )
One day my friend asked me to join him in Facebook roleplay and I was like “Yeah? Okay why not?” tbh, I don’t really like social networking ( but im addicted to it now kkk just twitter ^^ ). I was roleplaying as Lee Joon from MBLAQ because at that time MBLAQ got my attention more than others ( and because of “Joon” name kkk~ maybe some peoples who knows me will know “why”) back to the story /cough/ so like the others newbie, I joined an agency, talking with others. Well, they are friendly people, they take care of newbie well, show them how to do fan talk and do roleplaying well.
Then there’s a girl, she was roleplaying as ulzzang from China. Should I say her name? Kkkk~ her initial is “D”. I forgot why, but we became a couple. I bought her teddy-doll and she named it “Joonie” or “Joobie”? I forget kkk~ ( I’m such a grandpa otl ). Then, I should leaving RPW because things in real life. I told her “Let’s break up..” and she said “Why?” I don’t know what reason should I say, then I said “I should leaving RPW because I’m busy.” She replied me with “Just say that you don’t love me anymore!” I try to not hurt her feeling, I don’t want to be rude. Finally she said “Bye.” I just sighed in real life and signed out.
Sometimes. I opened my acc and saw her wall. It was heartbreaking how she posted that she is hurting and else. What can I do? I sighed again and never open my acc anymore. 1 month after that, I opened my acc and accepted friend-requested. There’s Jessica.. We always wall-ing #? Kkk~ and I found out that we were from the same country. So we starting to talk in our language, we become close and I feel comfortable with her. Our relationship was just like “Brother to Sister” not more than that. Then, I posting something in FYHP ( If you ever rp-ed in FB, you must be know this “popular” place hahaha ) well, FYHP was really err.. mess? Kkk~ I fanboying over Min from Miss A at that time and a Min RP commenting at my posting.
I added her, I like her. We become a couple #? Haha. I like to send her sweet things, she is… Just different… She is not acting cute, she is crazy ( so do I ) we always hyper. I like to hug her and squeeze her cheeks ( because the real Min has chubby cheeks kkk ) and tbh I like short girl kkk. Then one day, “D” online and sent me a message “Congrats, I hope you happy with her.” Bam.. my heart was like “I'm sorry.” I replied her “Thanks ^^” and she never replied me again. Hng.. And things going crazy again. I should leave RPW. I explained all to Min, I don’t want her to get hurt. She said “Okay ^^” I never hope she will fully understand. We broke-up when we already engaged. I leaved again.
3 months after that, I opened my acc, I found that Min locked her acc and she was deleted me from her friend-list. I just smiled. Then, I fell in love with my best friend in real life ( she was rp-ing as Jia from Miss A ) not so long, I confessed to her. We became a couple and I decided to leave RPW. About 8 months, I should go from my country. I got a chance to studied aboard and I think “I will never got the second chance.” I broke-up with her, she was supporting me. We always keep contact and until 2 months no news from her. I comeback to my country and found out she stills playing RP and had a couple. My heart is broken? Kkk. Then she broke-up with her couple, she wasn’t hurting that deep. She said “This is RPW, what do you hope for? Real relationship? Just use it as experienced. In RPW you will find many characters of people. RPW is dangerous huh? Kkk.” I smiled at her words.
She asked me to join RPW at twitter. My first agency? FW! Kkk. I rp-ing as hyunseung (b2st/beast) and FW “cleaning” the members. I changed into Ray from C-Clown ( when nobody knows C-Clown kkk their songs just fit me. Try to listen “In My Car” guys kkk ) then I got busy, I asked for unverified. Not so long, I joined with Jia and my cousin ( he was rp-ing as Jello (zelo) ) and I changed into Himchan kkkk in SLR ( Second Life Roleplay ) then all members moved to M2S ( we are nomaden RP yeah kkk and I feel comfortable with SLR members haha so I decided to move too). In M2S, I was a DJ for M2S_Twitcast kkk (#H) and I found someone too in M2S /wont say her name, she will thinks I’m weird because mentioning her name haha, but hey ma Cherie (sherri) kkk/. But M2S closed down and I’m here in BlackButler_RP kkk. Well, I found many characters like Jia said. Fun one, cold one, and worst.
Well, “Don’t use your feeling in RPW” you can’t tho, you will always use it. For me “Prepare your wall first if you want to join RPW. You should know the limit.” And these days, I found many rp-ers ruined their idol image for bashing people or else ( you guys know what I’m talking about. ) I just want to say let’s have fun in RPW, let’s treat each other nicely like what the old rp-ers do. Don’t treat the others badly and hurt their feeling. Eventho it’s just RPW and when you bashing people, their heart will hurting too. Their REAL heart. So please, have fun and protect each other. We are family ^^ well not real family, just RP. But you may don’t know, my friend, he met his wife in RPW so /shrugs/ haha. Well, I never say that I’m good at roleplaying but at least let’s treat each other nicely okay? I’m still learning too how to be a nice person in RPW kkk. Oh yeah like surumi’s quote, once I read it about “You’re not going to in RPW forever.” I 100% agree ^^. Thanks to FW Family, SLR Family, BC Family, BB Family and my friends in RPW, you guys are rock! \m/ love, peace, and keep loving food #?
By: Kwak Min Jun’s RP
Note: sorry for my bad grammar and the bad story, smile and cheer up, let’s be friend too, just mention me /aim at my username/ kkk ^^ I do bite.
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17. My RPlife Story
(by Anon)
Thanks to Surumi for allowing me to share this story, and I’m sorry for making it anonymous. I’m not the kind of person that used to talk much about her life, but since I wanna spill it here let’s just leave me unknown ^^
I started roleplaying in 2011 on facebook because of my sister, she asked me to take care of her acc. I played as a girl group’s main vocal and was a solo RP. RPW at that time was really great since people did less OOC and acted out like the real idol. I enjoyed the time and didn’t bother to make a pair with anyone, till came this guy (let’s call him K) to my RP life..
K sent me a friend request as a start. And soon as I accepted his friend request he greet me on my wall. Our convo was like:
K : Hey there! K imnida, nice to meet you (:
Me : Hello, nice to meet you too! :D
K : What are you doing?
Me : Nothing lol. You?
K : Not even breathing? O_O I’m looking for a girl
Me : Nope, Imma zombie :3 Oh, have you find one?
K : Lol don’t eat me! Yup, I’m talking to her now
Me : I won’t, I’m full now haha. Have fun with her then!
K : I do. She’s funny hahaha
Me : Who?
K : You
Me : Whut? Dude, thanks XD
K : Aish I’m serious. Be my girl?
And I was shocked, really. I didn’t know how to react because it was so sudden, you see, we’d just met for a few minutes. Make it worse, K was the first guy that confessed to me at that time. So I dared him to wall 20 persons telling them that he adores me and wants me to be with him, and he did! Since he did my dare (and actually he’s my bias) I accepted his confession.
Days passed as we became a couple. We weren’t sweet, we never said sweet lines to each other, not even “i love you”. We could spent hours together talked about random things, troll around, and argued over who’s the prettiest among my group’s members or the coolest among his group’s members. He’s a big time player and so was I, that’s why others called us spam couple.
One day, K asked on private message “Where are you from?”. I told him without hesitation. We, by any chance, came from the same country. So he asked for my pa and he gave me his phone number, telling me to contact him there. After that, we became closer in RPW and RL. He always sent me short messages and called me at night. Everytime I spent with him was always fun. But I’ve never really had a feeling to K before, probably because I had a boyfie irl. My (ex)boyfie was a great boy, i loved him -- no, i love him up to now. He (my ex irl) was busy due to his last year in school. Consequentlty, he rarely contacted me but whenever he contacted me I was kinda abandoning him because I was bored with him.
After 4 months, K confessed to the real me that he wanted me to be his girl irl. I told him that I had a boyfie but he said that he will wait. I was confused, I won’t easily break up with my boyfie, our r/s had been 10 months at that time. I know that it’s crazy how you can develop that special feeling to a person that you’ve never met, but I did. I felt like betraying my boyfie, I tried hard to fight those feelings.
My boyfie finally found out what caused the changes in me. He wanted to break up, but I was too egoistic to let him go. I didn’t wanna lose him nor K, but I gotta choose, and I chose my boyfie. I told K that I couldn’t be with him, that he should leave and forget me. But K disagreed, he told me to look deep into my heart, to recall all this time he was the one that always there. I wanted to cry, it’s true, but all those things were fake, all were virtual. I need something real and it was my boyfie. Then I changed my phone number and deactivated my RP acc without telling him, without even saying goodbye. Realized that I left him, K spammed on my pa everyday that soon I closed my pa too. Flustered, I took hiatus from RPW for almost a year.
There’s no more me and K. But RP is my major hobby so I came back (this time on twitter) and decided to do TG, yes I played as a male idol, to prevent the same thing happen. I think if I play male role, I won’t involve my real feeling in it. I confessed only to them that were too obvious about their feeling to my chara for fun, or else, they confessed to me. Unfortunately, I easily got bored whenever I had a couple in RPW because things became awkward, so that the r/s never last long. I always deactivated as soon as I got a mate (it’s cruel I know), and when they ask for my pa, I never gave it. I seperate my real life away from my RP life.
Suddenly things changed when I joined an agency in twitter. I started the play as usual till I met this girl, she was kinda obvious about her feeling to my chara. I was thinking to refused her gently, but then I decided to “confesssed” like I’d really been in love with her. One day, after I found out the founder of the agency were a group of RPers that I disliked, I wanted to leave. But this girl I met reminded me of my bestie, so I couldn’t leave her without a goodbye. I told her and agreed to give her my pa because I believed her, then we made another acc and be a couple again. We make sweet couples in RP, and a good friendship irl. I began to forget my trauma and learned to make another female chara but they’re all end up abandoned.
I thought my r/s with my boyfie went well, but he cheated on me. I should’ve known that he’s a jerk. I should’ve let him go and chose K instead. Tho my brain kept on blaming my heart, my heart stood still and said that I love him more than K. Why did I have to be so blind at that time? My heart was aching, I chose him and did anything to be with him, but he didn’t. July 15th, 2012, our r/s was over, but I can’t erase the feeling towards him. Up to now, I always play male chara. I lost my sense on playing female chara due to the trauma, I can’t hurt another “K” and my heart.
“There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're the way they are.”
18. My RPLife Story
(by Anon)
I experienced roleplaying since 2 year ago and I took hiatus. I can’t stand being ignored like that, or maybe I was not so expert among those people. So I decided to roleplaying again, 6 months ago.
I didn’t know you could rping as Korean idols, so I wasn’t so picky at choosing idol back then, I picked someone which is 86liner. It was nice, everyone is being so kind at me, we had fun. I regretted, a bit.
I should just be a good rper. I mean.. I’m not too good that time. There was a drama. They seems didn’t like the new members. They are “badmouthing” us with the other old members, they said TL is no longer theirs, etc. Until they hired a new admin, which one of them is a new member also. She started to unverified the inactive member (like it suppose to be done) and verify the new one.
There was someone who seems so mad and was like “you kicked out my favourite member” and blah blah. That’s how the case started. Few days later, there was someone who “hacked” the base account and started kick out every members which is clearly active, and threat some of us, if we don’t deacted our account, he will hacked it. What makes me sad is, there’s this one girl and a boy; they seems play around with that “anon admin”. One said “I don’t think he’s a hacker” and “ I don’t care about he’s kicking everyone” something like that.
I was curious at the night before it happened, they talked to each other thru PA, with their RP accs too, so I stalked. Even they planned it out, wow.. beautiful crime is it? Even there was my friend’s appa who badmouthing her in his PA. so.. some of us got kicked out and instantly some of the members “run away” from that place too.
I was creating the new rp world and most of us moved there. So we started talking about how they were so rude and wondering what is the exact reason they kicked us out. Again! I stalked them, they said “that place is badmouthing us”. We started to be aware if one of them will join us in that new place and that was true, someone joined us there and seems terror one of us with sending a rude confession.
So we back to be like a normal place, it was nice until someone “dominate” our place, this boy said so much harsh words and seems so hateful. I know he changed, he wasn’t like that before. So I felt I can’t handle the place anymore, I left. So I think it’s enough. I won’t continue my story.
Case done.
And there’s one story when I was joining another rp agency. I was trying to be cute that time. Typing with cute emoticons and know what? I’m being judged. There’s someone talked about me when I’m off, I saw my name. “I hate someone who type like that” “ikr.. me too”. How someone can judge you by your way of typing? I mean, is that even a problem?
RPworld taught me so much things. About they who accept you at the first place, and you forgot them easily, because you finally found much cooler guys to be friend with. Is it even considered as a friend? I think no. Also about how you should never judge someone from his or her way of type. It’s their own style.
When you can’t cheer yourself in the real life, RPworld will guarantee you a much more fun. Just be careful about yourself, you’ll never want to be involved in a drama, even spill your RL stuffs out might be dangerous.
I didn’t know you could rping as Korean idols, so I wasn’t so picky at choosing idol back then, I picked someone which is 86liner. It was nice, everyone is being so kind at me, we had fun. I regretted, a bit.
I should just be a good rper. I mean.. I’m not too good that time. There was a drama. They seems didn’t like the new members. They are “badmouthing” us with the other old members, they said TL is no longer theirs, etc. Until they hired a new admin, which one of them is a new member also. She started to unverified the inactive member (like it suppose to be done) and verify the new one.
There was someone who seems so mad and was like “you kicked out my favourite member” and blah blah. That’s how the case started. Few days later, there was someone who “hacked” the base account and started kick out every members which is clearly active, and threat some of us, if we don’t deacted our account, he will hacked it. What makes me sad is, there’s this one girl and a boy; they seems play around with that “anon admin”. One said “I don’t think he’s a hacker” and “ I don’t care about he’s kicking everyone” something like that.
I was curious at the night before it happened, they talked to each other thru PA, with their RP accs too, so I stalked. Even they planned it out, wow.. beautiful crime is it? Even there was my friend’s appa who badmouthing her in his PA. so.. some of us got kicked out and instantly some of the members “run away” from that place too.
I was creating the new rp world and most of us moved there. So we started talking about how they were so rude and wondering what is the exact reason they kicked us out. Again! I stalked them, they said “that place is badmouthing us”. We started to be aware if one of them will join us in that new place and that was true, someone joined us there and seems terror one of us with sending a rude confession.
So we back to be like a normal place, it was nice until someone “dominate” our place, this boy said so much harsh words and seems so hateful. I know he changed, he wasn’t like that before. So I felt I can’t handle the place anymore, I left. So I think it’s enough. I won’t continue my story.
Case done.
And there’s one story when I was joining another rp agency. I was trying to be cute that time. Typing with cute emoticons and know what? I’m being judged. There’s someone talked about me when I’m off, I saw my name. “I hate someone who type like that” “ikr.. me too”. How someone can judge you by your way of typing? I mean, is that even a problem?
RPworld taught me so much things. About they who accept you at the first place, and you forgot them easily, because you finally found much cooler guys to be friend with. Is it even considered as a friend? I think no. Also about how you should never judge someone from his or her way of type. It’s their own style.
When you can’t cheer yourself in the real life, RPworld will guarantee you a much more fun. Just be careful about yourself, you’ll never want to be involved in a drama, even spill your RL stuffs out might be dangerous.
18. No Differences between RP and Rl
by Anon
First of all, sorry for making my story as an Anonymous story. I just don't want anyone to know about the real me, scared. And thanks to Surumi-chan for posting it here, I appreciate you a lot!
So here goes nothing.....
I started my roleplay life in June/July 2012. I joined as Apink's Bomi and this roleplay agency, its one of the best agencies ever. I got many new friends, family members and even....a boyfriend.
Everyone was a family, a big BIG family. No one was left out. The admins are super family and all. It's a perfect family. My boyfriend was very sweet too, but he's just my RP boyfriend, in real, he's just like my brother, an older brother of mine.
But one day, the agency, decided to close down. I don't even know why but it was said it was because of some copy-cats? I'm not sure... I was sad but my boyfriend, we decided to move agencies together. I lost my old friends but I found new ones. Still, they weren't just the same, I miss them. My Vic umma, Bom twinnie unnie, Changmin oppa, Baek bestie, Joojoo, Hayoungie maknae, everyone. I hope they're reading it now...I hope.
And actually, me and my 'boyfriend', we moved to one agency to another to another, it continues for about 2 months (I'm not sure) until I got tired of it...so I decided to make a new one, without his knowledge.
I roleplayed as Bomi too, and again, this agency feels like family too. Everyone was friendly, nice and I feel like I belong here.
Until 1 day, I found...'Him'. This guy, he roleplay as Baekhyun. Yes, Byun Baekhyun. I found him attractive, he's unique. We are close, we teased each other a lot, everyday if possible. I finally....fell in love with him. And I knew, this feeling, isn't the feeling I felt for my previous boyfriend earlier.
Jiyoung, my bestie there, and also Baekhyun's sister, knows about my feelings towards him. Even Naeun and Hayoung, my 2 girls (oh how I miss them </3), told me to confess to him. Ironic, but I don't do confessions to guys, its just not me.
Until one day, when me, Woori halmeoni and Fany unnie, we played truth or dare. Woori halmeoni, she asked me and Fany unnie a question.
“Which guy will you bring to a deserted island?”
I answered, “my dad”.
And Fany unnie answered, “Byun Baekhyun”
Right at that moment, my heart, as pathetic as it sounds, it crushes into pieces. Cause I know, Baekhyun, he's a fanboy of SNSD for God's sake! Its a triangle love.... And I believed, I didn't have the slightest chance that time. I repeat, I believed.
One night, Baekhyun, he DM-ed me. God knows how happy I was that night, the happiest girl in the world, I literally jumped up and down on my bed that day, silly me. Anyway, he DM-ed me. At first we were just like usual, teasing each other. I called him babobaek and he calls me babomi, it was sweet for me, very sweet. Then, he asked me.....whether I like him or not.
I was so shocked till I only said “That's a secret babobaek.” But in the end, after some sort of persuasion, I told him that I do like him. And as kind as he is, he asked me “Do you know who I like pabomi?” So I answered him that I know that he likes Fany unnie. And his next answer was.....oh God.
“Pabomi, you're really a pabo huh? I don't like her, I like you..”
Imagine how happy I am at that moment? God!! So from then onwards, we became a couple, he's the best boyfriend ever! After 2 months, he finally asked me about my PA. So I gave him and we...we date in RL.
He's my RP boyfriend and RL boyfriend! God I felt like I'm the happiest girl on earth! Well of course, we got some problems (sorry I can't tell you all) but still we went through it and got back together again.
Until 1 day, I made a HUGE mistake. Oh God, I... Found an interesting guy at another RP and he...he found out. The worst thing is....this 'interesting guy' is actually, my boyfriend's friend.... I felt very guilty and I feel that I don't deserve him. He was a perfect boyfriend but me? I sort of cheated on him. I didn't go on a relationship with the 'interesting guy' but we did like each other. I'm a total...b*tch right? RIGHT!
So I decided to end my relationship with him. He deserves a better girl, a much more better in fact. I try to forget about that 'interesting guy' too. Me and that 'interesting guy' is just friends now.
But....I regret my decision, ending my relationship with my boyfriend, I regret it with all my heart.
So I told him all my feelings, my regret, I apologised to him a million times, everything, I want him back. As cheesy as it sounds, I can't live without him....
Well now, we're back to start things fresh. He gave another chance! Didn't I tell you how perfect he is? Well, I'm gonna say it again, he's TOO perfect! I just hope we'll be back together again, pray for me guys? /chuckles/
Actually, this story, its just about 50% of the real experience I went through. I haven't told you guys about the details of the story, I'm not able to do so, I'm sorry....
Last point;
Jiyoung bestie, thanks for helping me out. I miss you so much, hope to see you again bestie! Then Jae oppa, you're always gotta be my brother okay? Remember that! Vic umma and Bom twinnie unnie, I miss youuuuuuu! Hope you girls are doing fine! Then Naeun and Hayoung, I love you girls, don't ever forget me okay? To...Kris, mr wu, sorry..sorry for everything, find your girl soon, you hear me?
And.....to Baekki oppa, I loved you, love you and will always do. I hope you're going to accept me again, I'll fix myself up. I promise I won't do the same mistake.
By; babomi ♡
So here goes nothing.....
I started my roleplay life in June/July 2012. I joined as Apink's Bomi and this roleplay agency, its one of the best agencies ever. I got many new friends, family members and even....a boyfriend.
Everyone was a family, a big BIG family. No one was left out. The admins are super family and all. It's a perfect family. My boyfriend was very sweet too, but he's just my RP boyfriend, in real, he's just like my brother, an older brother of mine.
But one day, the agency, decided to close down. I don't even know why but it was said it was because of some copy-cats? I'm not sure... I was sad but my boyfriend, we decided to move agencies together. I lost my old friends but I found new ones. Still, they weren't just the same, I miss them. My Vic umma, Bom twinnie unnie, Changmin oppa, Baek bestie, Joojoo, Hayoungie maknae, everyone. I hope they're reading it now...I hope.
And actually, me and my 'boyfriend', we moved to one agency to another to another, it continues for about 2 months (I'm not sure) until I got tired of it...so I decided to make a new one, without his knowledge.
I roleplayed as Bomi too, and again, this agency feels like family too. Everyone was friendly, nice and I feel like I belong here.
Until 1 day, I found...'Him'. This guy, he roleplay as Baekhyun. Yes, Byun Baekhyun. I found him attractive, he's unique. We are close, we teased each other a lot, everyday if possible. I finally....fell in love with him. And I knew, this feeling, isn't the feeling I felt for my previous boyfriend earlier.
Jiyoung, my bestie there, and also Baekhyun's sister, knows about my feelings towards him. Even Naeun and Hayoung, my 2 girls (oh how I miss them </3), told me to confess to him. Ironic, but I don't do confessions to guys, its just not me.
Until one day, when me, Woori halmeoni and Fany unnie, we played truth or dare. Woori halmeoni, she asked me and Fany unnie a question.
“Which guy will you bring to a deserted island?”
I answered, “my dad”.
And Fany unnie answered, “Byun Baekhyun”
Right at that moment, my heart, as pathetic as it sounds, it crushes into pieces. Cause I know, Baekhyun, he's a fanboy of SNSD for God's sake! Its a triangle love.... And I believed, I didn't have the slightest chance that time. I repeat, I believed.
One night, Baekhyun, he DM-ed me. God knows how happy I was that night, the happiest girl in the world, I literally jumped up and down on my bed that day, silly me. Anyway, he DM-ed me. At first we were just like usual, teasing each other. I called him babobaek and he calls me babomi, it was sweet for me, very sweet. Then, he asked me.....whether I like him or not.
I was so shocked till I only said “That's a secret babobaek.” But in the end, after some sort of persuasion, I told him that I do like him. And as kind as he is, he asked me “Do you know who I like pabomi?” So I answered him that I know that he likes Fany unnie. And his next answer was.....oh God.
“Pabomi, you're really a pabo huh? I don't like her, I like you..”
Imagine how happy I am at that moment? God!! So from then onwards, we became a couple, he's the best boyfriend ever! After 2 months, he finally asked me about my PA. So I gave him and we...we date in RL.
He's my RP boyfriend and RL boyfriend! God I felt like I'm the happiest girl on earth! Well of course, we got some problems (sorry I can't tell you all) but still we went through it and got back together again.
Until 1 day, I made a HUGE mistake. Oh God, I... Found an interesting guy at another RP and he...he found out. The worst thing is....this 'interesting guy' is actually, my boyfriend's friend.... I felt very guilty and I feel that I don't deserve him. He was a perfect boyfriend but me? I sort of cheated on him. I didn't go on a relationship with the 'interesting guy' but we did like each other. I'm a total...b*tch right? RIGHT!
So I decided to end my relationship with him. He deserves a better girl, a much more better in fact. I try to forget about that 'interesting guy' too. Me and that 'interesting guy' is just friends now.
But....I regret my decision, ending my relationship with my boyfriend, I regret it with all my heart.
So I told him all my feelings, my regret, I apologised to him a million times, everything, I want him back. As cheesy as it sounds, I can't live without him....
Well now, we're back to start things fresh. He gave another chance! Didn't I tell you how perfect he is? Well, I'm gonna say it again, he's TOO perfect! I just hope we'll be back together again, pray for me guys? /chuckles/
Actually, this story, its just about 50% of the real experience I went through. I haven't told you guys about the details of the story, I'm not able to do so, I'm sorry....
Last point;
Jiyoung bestie, thanks for helping me out. I miss you so much, hope to see you again bestie! Then Jae oppa, you're always gotta be my brother okay? Remember that! Vic umma and Bom twinnie unnie, I miss youuuuuuu! Hope you girls are doing fine! Then Naeun and Hayoung, I love you girls, don't ever forget me okay? To...Kris, mr wu, sorry..sorry for everything, find your girl soon, you hear me?
And.....to Baekki oppa, I loved you, love you and will always do. I hope you're going to accept me again, I'll fix myself up. I promise I won't do the same mistake.
By; babomi ♡
19. Fangirl and fanboy
by: BC_Namjoo
eng... hi? lol i don't know how to start but just lemme start my story then :3 btw thanks for Surumi-chan for posting it, me wuf yeeew!
i started to played roleplay like 2years ago. everything went right, i played like the real idol. fantalk, wrote status with hangul, repost everything from the idol's twitter, etc. my bad-experience started when i roleplayed as Kim Yookwon from BlockB. well i love Yookwon so much so i started to roleplay as him. Yookwon's first couple was Eyoung, After School's member. and they broke up because of a fangirl.
let just call her Nina. Nina add Yookwon, i accepted it and everything went wrong. she always wrote 'Oppa i love you so much!' or 'Oppa can you marry me?'. okay, that's not a big problem because it's a normal thing that fangirl do. so i just replied all her wallpost. then, she started to tag me ALL HER SELCAS and i was like 'what did she mean by doing this?'. sometimes i wrote OOC 'i'm not the real ukwon, don't misunderstand it' but she's still misunderstand that i am the real Yookwon.
everything became more bad when she add Eyoung and then bash her all the time. she also said 'Oppa, why did you become a couple with her? she's ugly or blablabla' and also she always said 'Oppa... i always imagine to have a boys who can play guitar and dance so well. and the boys is you<3' i just well yea.. i can't describe my feelings.
and you know what's the WORST thing she did? she said 'Oppa, i always dream to do s** with you'. when i read it i was like 'yuck! what did she mean by telling me this?' after that, i wrote at her wall.
"Dear Nina, i am not the real Yookwon. i am just his roleplay." and then she bash me all the time and never wall me or message me again. she said that i'm a faker and i was like 'did i already say that i'm a roleplay from the start you add me?' but nevermind, at least she didn't bother me again.
BUT
like one month after that she message me "Oppa, i really like you. i already fall in love with you, although you are not the real Yookwon. i am fall in love to the real YOU. what should i do to make you love me back?" i am speechless. so i made a new account and asked Eyoung to add me there then i never open that acc again. that's the story about fangirl. move to fanboy.
like 3 months after that, i started to played roleplay at twitter as Seo Eungyo form 5Dolls. there's a fanboy who always talked to me. he's so kind and also he's soooo handsome lol. i ever tweet that i am hungry (with korean) and he said 'do you want me to send you food?' then i said 'sure! if you don't mind.' and then he posted a photo of a cake then he tweet 'gonna send it to cutie-pie eungyonnie~' like 2weeks later, the real Eungyo got that cake and she posted the picture of that cake. speechless. he's really a fan of coed, same like me. but at the end, it always ended same like the fangirl's did. when Eungyo got boyfriend, he bashed and blablabla.
after that, i never over-reacted with my bias because i know how they feel. like these days, when real-Yookwon got girlfriend, i tried to don't bash her because i know how his and her feels.
i started to played roleplay like 2years ago. everything went right, i played like the real idol. fantalk, wrote status with hangul, repost everything from the idol's twitter, etc. my bad-experience started when i roleplayed as Kim Yookwon from BlockB. well i love Yookwon so much so i started to roleplay as him. Yookwon's first couple was Eyoung, After School's member. and they broke up because of a fangirl.
let just call her Nina. Nina add Yookwon, i accepted it and everything went wrong. she always wrote 'Oppa i love you so much!' or 'Oppa can you marry me?'. okay, that's not a big problem because it's a normal thing that fangirl do. so i just replied all her wallpost. then, she started to tag me ALL HER SELCAS and i was like 'what did she mean by doing this?'. sometimes i wrote OOC 'i'm not the real ukwon, don't misunderstand it' but she's still misunderstand that i am the real Yookwon.
everything became more bad when she add Eyoung and then bash her all the time. she also said 'Oppa, why did you become a couple with her? she's ugly or blablabla' and also she always said 'Oppa... i always imagine to have a boys who can play guitar and dance so well. and the boys is you<3' i just well yea.. i can't describe my feelings.
and you know what's the WORST thing she did? she said 'Oppa, i always dream to do s** with you'. when i read it i was like 'yuck! what did she mean by telling me this?' after that, i wrote at her wall.
"Dear Nina, i am not the real Yookwon. i am just his roleplay." and then she bash me all the time and never wall me or message me again. she said that i'm a faker and i was like 'did i already say that i'm a roleplay from the start you add me?' but nevermind, at least she didn't bother me again.
BUT
like one month after that she message me "Oppa, i really like you. i already fall in love with you, although you are not the real Yookwon. i am fall in love to the real YOU. what should i do to make you love me back?" i am speechless. so i made a new account and asked Eyoung to add me there then i never open that acc again. that's the story about fangirl. move to fanboy.
like 3 months after that, i started to played roleplay at twitter as Seo Eungyo form 5Dolls. there's a fanboy who always talked to me. he's so kind and also he's soooo handsome lol. i ever tweet that i am hungry (with korean) and he said 'do you want me to send you food?' then i said 'sure! if you don't mind.' and then he posted a photo of a cake then he tweet 'gonna send it to cutie-pie eungyonnie~' like 2weeks later, the real Eungyo got that cake and she posted the picture of that cake. speechless. he's really a fan of coed, same like me. but at the end, it always ended same like the fangirl's did. when Eungyo got boyfriend, he bashed and blablabla.
after that, i never over-reacted with my bias because i know how they feel. like these days, when real-Yookwon got girlfriend, i tried to don't bash her because i know how his and her feels.
20. Hope
(by anon)
Well it's actually my friend's story, who passed away last week. He was my roommate and bestfriend. This friend of mine roleplayed as Youngmin from BOYFRIEND, he joined an Indonesian Agency @Agensi_IRP (if I'm not mistaken). In real life, he didn't really have a lot of friends (can't tell the reason), so I decided to introduce him to the RP world. That time I wasn't playing any RP due to competitions. Anyway! Days passed since he started to play, and one day he met this ulzzang girl, Park Hyojin from the same agency. They didn't talk much, but he did told me that he had real feelings for her. So without further thinking I told him, "go and confess to her man" and he actually did on 12/12/12. He was kind of awkward from what i've seen, he's not romantic at all. After they're officially dating, Youngmin started to come-and-go from his RP. Then he went on hiatus. Few days later, he complained for having frequent headaches and difficulty to walk. I told him to go to the doctor a.s.a.p. after having few check ups and scans, the doctor told me that he has to prepare for the worst. I wasn't really aware that he was unwell for the past few weeks. "Son, I'm sorry to say this but.. your friend has brain cancer." I literally stoned there the second I heard it. So i tried to cheer my friend up and talked casually. He always talk about Hyojin and how much he loved her. "This might seem silly, but I'll love her to death." He said. All I could do was to smile and be happy for him. Days passed and his condition turned from bad to worst until the moment he couldn't even lift his arms & legs. I wasn't able to stick around 'cause his family was there all the time. Third day of 2013, I woke up & received a call from his dad, told me that he passed away at dawn. I rushed myself to the hospital.. and saw him lying there, completely pale. He was still holding his phone, on the screen I saw his DM with Hyojin.
Some of you might not believe this, but it did happen. Anyway, this might be an RP but the person behind the 'mask' is a human being with feelings. He passed away still believing that he loves Hyojin.
Some of you might not believe this, but it did happen. Anyway, this might be an RP but the person behind the 'mask' is a human being with feelings. He passed away still believing that he loves Hyojin.
21. Hurting to be a Fool
(by: anon)
Hi! I wanna share my RP’s experience. I started play RP on August, 2012. I joined an international agency. Well, the members are so welcome. I was very comfortable there. I have besties, eonnideul, oppadeul. So happy there. I became a hyper member there. So someday I had a chance to join an event, such as WGM. My couple was so sweet. I fell for him? Yes! Since I didn’t have crush, I’m easy to fallfor him. I remember that time.. When he confessed to me. People on timeline were waiting for me too. I thought he still played WGM, but after that I knew it was real. We became a couple. How happy I am that time. Actually, I will confess to him if he didn’t confess that time.
Even I have a bf, but I still talk active there. Talk with my besties, my eonnideul, oppars. But yeah, that is RPW! People left. How sad even that’s a fake world. One day, me and my couple fought because of someone called me with a nickname that I didn’t like. We almost break up that time. Next day, I said sorry to him. Day by day, people left… But lucky, people who close with me didn’t leave. On my couple’s bday I planned something. Wanna make him jealous since he always made me jealous. But he said he will ignore me for a week if I made him jealous. But his friend told me he lied. Impossible he will ignore me for a week. So I planned that with my dongsaengs.
In RL, I asked my friend to draw a cartoon who look alike him. My couple ever drawed my pic, that’s why I wanna do it. But at the night, he said wanna hiatus. Before his B’day. So what I was doing is nothing. We broke up that night. But still talk on dm. I ripped that pic. So emotional that time. But in the morning I was regret. We back to couple again. Because didn’t have anything, I only wrote a birthday’s wishes on a paper and took the photo. His friend said he likes that. But seriously I thought that was ugly. I realized my relation with my oppa become far. He said didn’t want my couple will be mad. But we still talk through DM. In early morning, I always talked with my couple before we go to school. And one day I accepted a menfess. That menfess said “ Is you still with him? I’m waiting for you”. I told my couple but I said to him just ignore.
How bad I am. Always fell asleep when talked at night. But I always wake up earlier since we have different time zone. Suddenly, my agency became so ruin. My dongsaeng and bestie had problem. They left. How sad I was that time. How can they left me when I felt happy to be hyper with them. After knew the reason they left, I hate some people after that. They hurted my besties. But again my couple by my side that time.
There was a boy on my DM. He asked me to join an agency and be his couple. But I wasn’t a type of girl who can share my love. I unfollowed him and blocked since he did too much. But no one know because I didn’t want something happen with my couple. But yeah I admit my couple was getting popular. He got menfess. I was jealous, worry, sad, all! But that time he threw away that feeling.
Some people said we were sweet couple, romantic couple, etc. Who won’t be happy to know about that. But again, he got menfess. Menfess by menfess.. that menfess said I’m not good for him. I was down.. so down.. but he and people who close with me entertain me. How lucky I am that time. People joined my agency and I have more friends. But someday, my precious eonni deacted suddenly. I cried in rl. She was so nice and kind. I’m still remember her last advice to me. And again, my couple by my side that time. I knew that he was getting popular.. I was worry. All girls will feel that way I think.
Me and my couple joined a new agency and became couple too. But honestly, I knew some people dislike me there. My couple was popular too there. I tried to be strong. Talked with them and I admit some of them so nice and friendly. Some of them were so cute. I was envy. Why I can’t be cute like them? And I realized I rare to interact with new members in my other agency. So I decided to leave new acc and told him I can’t handle two acc.
I remember, my couple said yes when I said don’t have other couple. He promised won’t do it. I know he want to, but my umma said at least, he kept his promises. Day by day we oftenly fought. Because of monthsarry, bias, until cold tweets. He ever said to me that he hates my sensitiveness. I realized, how bad I am. I was trying not to be sensitive but still in front of him, I’m a sensitive girl. I accepted that.
Because of so busy in rl, I fell sick and should take a rest in hospital. I wasn’t online for a few days, but I ever online from my friend’s phone. My couple spammed my DM and mention with love tweets. He was waiting for me. Since I wasn’t comfortable in hospital, I force my parents to bring me to home. I was out from hospital but still rest in home. I rare to online too. Only talk on dm. I was happy, when I was sick even in rl, some people in rp care with me. But again, I should enter hospital. I lost too much platelet. But again he spammed my mention and DM. It became something for me to be health fastly. Then, I was fully healthy. But still, we often fought. He had bestie in other acc and well I was so jealous. They talk much on timeline but me.. Honestly he rare to online in his first acc. We talked on dm and my spam only got fav by him.
And day by day, I stalked him and I found it. He had some accs, and I didn’t know it. But some people, he told them not to tell me. I was sad. He oftenly replied me lately and coldly. But he was so hyper at other accs. I asked my self, “is the reason he rare to online here is me?”. I was down. Then, my dongsaeng left me too. Honestly, I didn’t have close friends anymore at my agency. I have one who still stay but she rare to online. I didn’t have to talk, to tell my problem. My couple was cold to me. I realized that. I blame myself. It’s because my sensitiveness. My umma was from other agency, I told her all my problem. I ever made an acc at his bestie’s agency. I talked with her. She gave me advices. I knew my couple always talked with her. And again, I realized it was my fault. Made him became so down. He kept his promises to me but I can’t change myself to be better.
I’m a stalker, so I stalked him everyday. But, I found something accidently.. his other acc.. there, he was loveydoveying with other girl. That girl got more that me. He rare to be romantic like before but he was so romantic with that girl. Again, we fought. I ever didn’t sleep along a day because of his gloomy tweets. I knew he likes other girl. And that time, he need his bestie, not me. I tried to be strong. I can’t let him go but I didn’t want to get hurt too. I don’t know how much tears fell because of rpw. Because of bored, I want to add some friends from other agencies. And accidently, I found his other acc. That was him. I know his typing well. I’m sure it was him. He had couple there. The reason he became cold was because of his other couple. I was stalking even my tears can’t stop to fall. He was my old boy. My boy in WGM. He was my adorable boy. he treated me so cold but he was so lovely with that girl. Then, what he called me in DM, he called that girl like that. I’m sure that girl is better than me. She isn’t sensitive like me. So I decided to leave. I send him and my close friends menfess one by one. I changed my name to deact. That night was so bad. He send me menfess too. I was crying when read that. Did I hurt him? But I get hurt too. Before deact that acc, some people DMed me.. some of them blame me because of my couple blamed his self. But some of them understand with my decision too. So I DMed him not to blame his self and I deact.
But one day, he texted me and told me that my friends send him hate menfess. I didn’t lost contact with some of my friends. I asked them but they said they never do it. So I reactived my acc to verify about that. But yeah, two people DMed me and made me confuse. She told me that my friend send that hate menfess. She is the one who told my ex that “me and my gang want to disturb his life”. And there was someone told me that I am a “TRASH”. How hurt! So hurt! And I knew about people who badmouth about me too. That cutie girl. Gomawo for badmouth me. I cried a lot. Am I really that dirty that’s why she said I’m a trash. But after that she said sorry. Whatever.. I already got hurt. After that, I tweets much in my acc before deact. But I changed my mind. I choose to leave that acc, not deact since the new owner didn’t want to online there.
And I just knew if the one who gave me advices is two face people. Lol! They became couple at other agency. Even I left rpw, but still… It’s hurt! I’m tired crying because of fakers. I trust too much. That girl.. I thought she was a good girl. I was very happy before.. when she gave me advices. She was so mature in my mind. But actually she has two faces. I can’t blame them too. Back to me.. If I can be a good gf, my ex won’t fall for her. But I can’t lie,,, I hate that girl. I was regret ever told my friends she was a nice girl. I was regret ever gave her menfess before leave. And now, I have an independent rp. Since so busy in rl, I take independent. There, I talked with my old family. I’m trying to forget all. And I know it needs time. Even that’s a fake world, but it involved rl feelings too.. don’t give people fake feelings. It’s a happinies to have friends, oppars, eonnideul although only in rpw.. but really, don’t have two faces… so hurt!! No one want to be a fool!!!!
Even I have a bf, but I still talk active there. Talk with my besties, my eonnideul, oppars. But yeah, that is RPW! People left. How sad even that’s a fake world. One day, me and my couple fought because of someone called me with a nickname that I didn’t like. We almost break up that time. Next day, I said sorry to him. Day by day, people left… But lucky, people who close with me didn’t leave. On my couple’s bday I planned something. Wanna make him jealous since he always made me jealous. But he said he will ignore me for a week if I made him jealous. But his friend told me he lied. Impossible he will ignore me for a week. So I planned that with my dongsaengs.
In RL, I asked my friend to draw a cartoon who look alike him. My couple ever drawed my pic, that’s why I wanna do it. But at the night, he said wanna hiatus. Before his B’day. So what I was doing is nothing. We broke up that night. But still talk on dm. I ripped that pic. So emotional that time. But in the morning I was regret. We back to couple again. Because didn’t have anything, I only wrote a birthday’s wishes on a paper and took the photo. His friend said he likes that. But seriously I thought that was ugly. I realized my relation with my oppa become far. He said didn’t want my couple will be mad. But we still talk through DM. In early morning, I always talked with my couple before we go to school. And one day I accepted a menfess. That menfess said “ Is you still with him? I’m waiting for you”. I told my couple but I said to him just ignore.
How bad I am. Always fell asleep when talked at night. But I always wake up earlier since we have different time zone. Suddenly, my agency became so ruin. My dongsaeng and bestie had problem. They left. How sad I was that time. How can they left me when I felt happy to be hyper with them. After knew the reason they left, I hate some people after that. They hurted my besties. But again my couple by my side that time.
There was a boy on my DM. He asked me to join an agency and be his couple. But I wasn’t a type of girl who can share my love. I unfollowed him and blocked since he did too much. But no one know because I didn’t want something happen with my couple. But yeah I admit my couple was getting popular. He got menfess. I was jealous, worry, sad, all! But that time he threw away that feeling.
Some people said we were sweet couple, romantic couple, etc. Who won’t be happy to know about that. But again, he got menfess. Menfess by menfess.. that menfess said I’m not good for him. I was down.. so down.. but he and people who close with me entertain me. How lucky I am that time. People joined my agency and I have more friends. But someday, my precious eonni deacted suddenly. I cried in rl. She was so nice and kind. I’m still remember her last advice to me. And again, my couple by my side that time. I knew that he was getting popular.. I was worry. All girls will feel that way I think.
Me and my couple joined a new agency and became couple too. But honestly, I knew some people dislike me there. My couple was popular too there. I tried to be strong. Talked with them and I admit some of them so nice and friendly. Some of them were so cute. I was envy. Why I can’t be cute like them? And I realized I rare to interact with new members in my other agency. So I decided to leave new acc and told him I can’t handle two acc.
I remember, my couple said yes when I said don’t have other couple. He promised won’t do it. I know he want to, but my umma said at least, he kept his promises. Day by day we oftenly fought. Because of monthsarry, bias, until cold tweets. He ever said to me that he hates my sensitiveness. I realized, how bad I am. I was trying not to be sensitive but still in front of him, I’m a sensitive girl. I accepted that.
Because of so busy in rl, I fell sick and should take a rest in hospital. I wasn’t online for a few days, but I ever online from my friend’s phone. My couple spammed my DM and mention with love tweets. He was waiting for me. Since I wasn’t comfortable in hospital, I force my parents to bring me to home. I was out from hospital but still rest in home. I rare to online too. Only talk on dm. I was happy, when I was sick even in rl, some people in rp care with me. But again, I should enter hospital. I lost too much platelet. But again he spammed my mention and DM. It became something for me to be health fastly. Then, I was fully healthy. But still, we often fought. He had bestie in other acc and well I was so jealous. They talk much on timeline but me.. Honestly he rare to online in his first acc. We talked on dm and my spam only got fav by him.
And day by day, I stalked him and I found it. He had some accs, and I didn’t know it. But some people, he told them not to tell me. I was sad. He oftenly replied me lately and coldly. But he was so hyper at other accs. I asked my self, “is the reason he rare to online here is me?”. I was down. Then, my dongsaeng left me too. Honestly, I didn’t have close friends anymore at my agency. I have one who still stay but she rare to online. I didn’t have to talk, to tell my problem. My couple was cold to me. I realized that. I blame myself. It’s because my sensitiveness. My umma was from other agency, I told her all my problem. I ever made an acc at his bestie’s agency. I talked with her. She gave me advices. I knew my couple always talked with her. And again, I realized it was my fault. Made him became so down. He kept his promises to me but I can’t change myself to be better.
I’m a stalker, so I stalked him everyday. But, I found something accidently.. his other acc.. there, he was loveydoveying with other girl. That girl got more that me. He rare to be romantic like before but he was so romantic with that girl. Again, we fought. I ever didn’t sleep along a day because of his gloomy tweets. I knew he likes other girl. And that time, he need his bestie, not me. I tried to be strong. I can’t let him go but I didn’t want to get hurt too. I don’t know how much tears fell because of rpw. Because of bored, I want to add some friends from other agencies. And accidently, I found his other acc. That was him. I know his typing well. I’m sure it was him. He had couple there. The reason he became cold was because of his other couple. I was stalking even my tears can’t stop to fall. He was my old boy. My boy in WGM. He was my adorable boy. he treated me so cold but he was so lovely with that girl. Then, what he called me in DM, he called that girl like that. I’m sure that girl is better than me. She isn’t sensitive like me. So I decided to leave. I send him and my close friends menfess one by one. I changed my name to deact. That night was so bad. He send me menfess too. I was crying when read that. Did I hurt him? But I get hurt too. Before deact that acc, some people DMed me.. some of them blame me because of my couple blamed his self. But some of them understand with my decision too. So I DMed him not to blame his self and I deact.
But one day, he texted me and told me that my friends send him hate menfess. I didn’t lost contact with some of my friends. I asked them but they said they never do it. So I reactived my acc to verify about that. But yeah, two people DMed me and made me confuse. She told me that my friend send that hate menfess. She is the one who told my ex that “me and my gang want to disturb his life”. And there was someone told me that I am a “TRASH”. How hurt! So hurt! And I knew about people who badmouth about me too. That cutie girl. Gomawo for badmouth me. I cried a lot. Am I really that dirty that’s why she said I’m a trash. But after that she said sorry. Whatever.. I already got hurt. After that, I tweets much in my acc before deact. But I changed my mind. I choose to leave that acc, not deact since the new owner didn’t want to online there.
And I just knew if the one who gave me advices is two face people. Lol! They became couple at other agency. Even I left rpw, but still… It’s hurt! I’m tired crying because of fakers. I trust too much. That girl.. I thought she was a good girl. I was very happy before.. when she gave me advices. She was so mature in my mind. But actually she has two faces. I can’t blame them too. Back to me.. If I can be a good gf, my ex won’t fall for her. But I can’t lie,,, I hate that girl. I was regret ever told my friends she was a nice girl. I was regret ever gave her menfess before leave. And now, I have an independent rp. Since so busy in rl, I take independent. There, I talked with my old family. I’m trying to forget all. And I know it needs time. Even that’s a fake world, but it involved rl feelings too.. don’t give people fake feelings. It’s a happinies to have friends, oppars, eonnideul although only in rpw.. but really, don’t have two faces… so hurt!! No one want to be a fool!!!!
22. Too Deep In To Escape.
(by: kkumaji aka PBS_Jda)
Hello, I'm here to share my story~ ^^ (Excuse my awkward introductions, ehe.) I feel like it's going to be rather long (more like life story, ohoho.), so you're free to skip to the e- /shot. Just kidding. Don't ignore meh. B|.
So, I started roleplaying on Facebook at EGO Roleplay in early August 2012 (My bestiefriend 69evar Messed_Zinger introduced me to this wonderful world, yes. <3 I thank that sweet, pretty girl~ If I hadn't met her on AFF, I wouldn't be here writing my roleplay story! We'll call her "Jiae" from now on. eue.), and fell head over heels with Twitter roleplays on August 11, 2012. More specifically, Caramel Macchiato Roleplay!
But here I was, sitting on AFF like a potato, laughing at the few roleplay ads that would pop up on my page. I was like, "Who needs roleplays? That's so weird, I'm never going to become a roleplayer! Hahaha!" Omfg, I jinxed myself, WAEE.
So, when I first began to roleplay at EGO as Suzy from Miss A, I was that one super awkward turtle that no one wanted to talk to. Except for Soyou, she was the sweetest ♡, and Ailee(?), who was my bby Jiae...Sometimes I wonder how she deals with me sometimes. orzorzorz. /dies.
IU Roleplayer : OMFG BAE SUSHI!! /GLOMPS. ouo
Me : OMG, JIEUN UNNIE! ....orz Um, I can call you unnie, right?
IU Roleplayer : ouo; Just call me IU. Ha..ha..hahaha....
[ continue awkward convo until she drops it. u o u ]
Yeah. I was like, born awkward. Help me. /drowns in awkwardness; flails.
Anyways, that roleplay died due to the admins being rather busy. They were all sweet peeps that tried to help me adjust, though I don't think I opened up to them very well... EGO Facebook Roleplay will always have a special place in my heart! ^^
Next stop, Caramel Macchiato! After Jiae convinced me to take these timid steps into the roleplay world, I decided that Facebook roleplays were too complicated for me (I've tried roleplaying on Facebook more than once, it just doesn't work out...). One day, I think(?) I decided to check out Twitter roleplays, or a roleplay ad showed up on my AFF, I'm not sure. Caramel Macchiato, based off of Hello Baby and We Got Married? It sounded promising, so I joined as Sunny, who had caught my eye the most in Girls' Generation. I mean, come on, she's adorable. *^*
Back then, I (seriously) had just gotten into girl groups (I didn't like Girls' Generation when I joined Caramel, 100% honest! Don't hurt me, I'm a Soshi now... Yuri and Taeyeon and Sunny I can't orz. asdfhsga.), and was kind of picky of choosing my favorite male k-pop bands (I found B.A.P and Block B too... all-up-in-my-face fierce for my tastes back then. I had to listen to them a few times to get used to it. cx).
There, I would just drift around like a ghost and only talk to the female (mostly Girls' Generation, they were all so lovely!) members because I was /still/ awkward. I wasn't hyper like the others around me, I wasn't very charming. All I was was bland, but kind. I felt kind of isolated and ignored, honestly. I felt like leaving countless times, but I stuck around anyways. This place has a huge place in my heart for some unknown reason (why would I care about them if they didn't really care about me? I don't know, either.), still to this day. I wish I had been more apart of that family.
In the end, a girl that should have been labeled as 'mentally ill', or 'professional stalker' ended up plagiarizing the whole theme and concept. She made like ten stories with the same concept. She had over ten accounts on Caramel. She claimed a Singaporean ulzzang's face as her own. She went to the lowest of lows. The proof is on the Caramel Macchiato AFF page. The whole inside story is on the Twitter base (@CaramelMRP). She was like a leech that just wouldn't go away! (Maybe fighting for the roleplay family made me closer to everyone else?) Naura, the creator of Caramel, ended up closing the roleplay due to the persistent bullshit she had to put up with.
(There was a secret little "smut" roleplay that Naura had made in the attempt to escape the little rat, but she still found us...)
I forever remember Na Hyunchul / Sun Jongdown / Donghae as the forever swimming, fat-bunny hugging awkward guy... just saying. hohoho.
Some of the loyal roleplayers at Caramel ended up making their own roleplay, Happily Messed Up Roleplay. I really had no where else to go, so I guess I just went with the flow. I joined as Suzy again.
This was the roleplay I had the most fun in, I think. I found some new people that would forever have a place in my heart; Kim Kaeun (my precious Partner in Crime that suddenly deacted... Remember our Hamtaro days? If you ever see this, I miss you, I love you Kaeunnie~! You're mine, forever and always, okay? ouo. ♡) , Yang Yeobbie, Eunjijiji, Meenaring, Maknae Buddy (Seohyunnie)...and Ahreum. Yes, who would become one of my soulmates at Patbingsu as Naeun. ♡♡♡. Other people include TokkiLu, who used to roleplay with me. We're close pals, oho. /wiggles eyebrows at his wall that is filled with my beautiful username.
Actually, there was a guy that kind of saw through my awkward turtle shell. Let's just call him 'J'. I didn't talk to him very much, and I felt kind of awkward and uncomfortable around him as well. One day, a confessions came in... directed at me.
"I hope you can open your heart for me. Even if it takes weeks, or even
years, I'll wait for you."
Well, what could I say? It was sweet. Too sweet. I really didn't deserve it. I didn't talk to any guy recently except for 'J', so who could it be? I had my suspicions whether it was 'J' or not, but I brushed that suspicions off. He likes Namjoo. They look cute together.
Everyone else around me kept stressing that it was him, but I kept denying it. I'm just odd and awkward, no way anyone would like me!
It turned out to be me. Me, who could barely hold a conversation with most other people, who was as gullible as a child. (Seriously, do you not see I kept rejecting this guy's confession OTLLL.)
...Here's the twist.
I didn't like him. At all.
Okay, I must admit, he was my BTOB bias.
But I didn't feel anything for him. Not even a speck of emotion.
I just accepted him out of pity. I'm a horrible person, right?
These cheesy days went by, and day by day, as I started to get to know him more, I started falling for him. Hard.
I really loved him, but sometimes I never knew how to express these feelings for him. Everyone would always crowd around him when he would appear, and I just felt like a disturbance to him and his friends. I would stay quiet unless he called me out first. This is just the person I am.
(I was in "side" roleplays as well, but the "relationships" I had there were kind of meaningless, like puppy love. [...But there was that one time the bias I was spazzing over the most joined the roleplay I was in on my and we started dating the same day, my birthday. AHAHA. /screams; punched. yesh i am talking about kim jonghyun from nuest. c; you may slap me now.])
I honestly wasn't the best girlfriend. I may seem cheesy and romantic and all that junk when it's pretend, but when it comes to the real deal, it's like blanking out on a final exam. xD.
He still loved me through all this? I really can't with him sometimes. >n<.
The day came when he finally proposed to me... kind of. He had the intention to "marry me," and of course, I was thrilled, though I still felt shy. I never truly opened up to him. After we were engaged... he had to leave due to some issues in real life. And he left me... for a month? Around a month. We never got married, I guess.
My feelings for him dimmed down dramatically, and at the time, Happily Messed Up was dead, and the roleplayers at HMU led me to Patbingsu Roleplay, where I joined as Eunji, changed to Hyeri, then stayed as J-Da... hence PBS_JDa. (LOL.)
I also had tons of fun here! Patbingsu Roleplay is jjang~ /throws them greasy hearts. My closest friends here were Min/Rokhyun (Jiae bby!), Princess Naeunnie, TokkiTokkiLu, and Elly baybe make yuh crayjee. ♡
I had been exchanging some words with 'H' and he... he really was charming as he saw himself as. But he would never notice me, you na' mean? /slapped. sorry this isn't a time for jokes. LOL. What I'm trying to say is, he was kind of popular, I guess.
We still talked to eachother from time to time. He made fun of me all the time, and he was just an idiot. Wae. /shot.
I tried not to reply to his mentions ASAP just in case that rose suspicion. ; o;
...But I still had feelings for this 'J' as well, because he had finally come back. This is just some confusing conflicts, right. eue.
I ended up back in a relationship with 'J' at PBS, because it turns out he was there as well. We didn't talk. Didn't mention eachother. I think the only form of communication we had was through DM. (no naughty thoughts allowed.)
Maybe I was scared to talk to him because still, he was one of those guys that everyone loved and would crowd around. Had he changed? Had I changed? I was scared of those changes.
The feelings for 'H' hadn't quite died down, either. I really didn't know what to do.
He eventually ended it between us, and I can't lie. I didn't feel very good about it. I wasn't on my knees sobbing and using the whole tissue box, but I did fall into a temporary funk.
I just wanted to leave all the pains that 'J' and 'H' were giving me, so I decided to leave all my roleplays... which didn't turn out so well. xD.
I changed the username, but I used the account as my personal spazz area. /shot. OTL.
My feels for 'H' or 'J' haven't really gone away, but I hope by the time I'm ready to come back this summer as J-Da once again, things would work out. c:
Thanks for listening to my horrific k-drama-like crap. /sobs. And my over-use of LOL and emoticons. Yush. /hides under a rock.
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So, I started roleplaying on Facebook at EGO Roleplay in early August 2012 (My bestiefriend 69evar Messed_Zinger introduced me to this wonderful world, yes. <3 I thank that sweet, pretty girl~ If I hadn't met her on AFF, I wouldn't be here writing my roleplay story! We'll call her "Jiae" from now on. eue.), and fell head over heels with Twitter roleplays on August 11, 2012. More specifically, Caramel Macchiato Roleplay!
But here I was, sitting on AFF like a potato, laughing at the few roleplay ads that would pop up on my page. I was like, "Who needs roleplays? That's so weird, I'm never going to become a roleplayer! Hahaha!" Omfg, I jinxed myself, WAEE.
So, when I first began to roleplay at EGO as Suzy from Miss A, I was that one super awkward turtle that no one wanted to talk to. Except for Soyou, she was the sweetest ♡, and Ailee(?), who was my bby Jiae...Sometimes I wonder how she deals with me sometimes. orzorzorz. /dies.
IU Roleplayer : OMFG BAE SUSHI!! /GLOMPS. ouo
Me : OMG, JIEUN UNNIE! ....orz Um, I can call you unnie, right?
IU Roleplayer : ouo; Just call me IU. Ha..ha..hahaha....
[ continue awkward convo until she drops it. u o u ]
Yeah. I was like, born awkward. Help me. /drowns in awkwardness; flails.
Anyways, that roleplay died due to the admins being rather busy. They were all sweet peeps that tried to help me adjust, though I don't think I opened up to them very well... EGO Facebook Roleplay will always have a special place in my heart! ^^
Next stop, Caramel Macchiato! After Jiae convinced me to take these timid steps into the roleplay world, I decided that Facebook roleplays were too complicated for me (I've tried roleplaying on Facebook more than once, it just doesn't work out...). One day, I think(?) I decided to check out Twitter roleplays, or a roleplay ad showed up on my AFF, I'm not sure. Caramel Macchiato, based off of Hello Baby and We Got Married? It sounded promising, so I joined as Sunny, who had caught my eye the most in Girls' Generation. I mean, come on, she's adorable. *^*
Back then, I (seriously) had just gotten into girl groups (I didn't like Girls' Generation when I joined Caramel, 100% honest! Don't hurt me, I'm a Soshi now... Yuri and Taeyeon and Sunny I can't orz. asdfhsga.), and was kind of picky of choosing my favorite male k-pop bands (I found B.A.P and Block B too... all-up-in-my-face fierce for my tastes back then. I had to listen to them a few times to get used to it. cx).
There, I would just drift around like a ghost and only talk to the female (mostly Girls' Generation, they were all so lovely!) members because I was /still/ awkward. I wasn't hyper like the others around me, I wasn't very charming. All I was was bland, but kind. I felt kind of isolated and ignored, honestly. I felt like leaving countless times, but I stuck around anyways. This place has a huge place in my heart for some unknown reason (why would I care about them if they didn't really care about me? I don't know, either.), still to this day. I wish I had been more apart of that family.
In the end, a girl that should have been labeled as 'mentally ill', or 'professional stalker' ended up plagiarizing the whole theme and concept. She made like ten stories with the same concept. She had over ten accounts on Caramel. She claimed a Singaporean ulzzang's face as her own. She went to the lowest of lows. The proof is on the Caramel Macchiato AFF page. The whole inside story is on the Twitter base (@CaramelMRP). She was like a leech that just wouldn't go away! (Maybe fighting for the roleplay family made me closer to everyone else?) Naura, the creator of Caramel, ended up closing the roleplay due to the persistent bullshit she had to put up with.
(There was a secret little "smut" roleplay that Naura had made in the attempt to escape the little rat, but she still found us...)
I forever remember Na Hyunchul / Sun Jongdown / Donghae as the forever swimming, fat-bunny hugging awkward guy... just saying. hohoho.
Some of the loyal roleplayers at Caramel ended up making their own roleplay, Happily Messed Up Roleplay. I really had no where else to go, so I guess I just went with the flow. I joined as Suzy again.
This was the roleplay I had the most fun in, I think. I found some new people that would forever have a place in my heart; Kim Kaeun (my precious Partner in Crime that suddenly deacted... Remember our Hamtaro days? If you ever see this, I miss you, I love you Kaeunnie~! You're mine, forever and always, okay? ouo. ♡) , Yang Yeobbie, Eunjijiji, Meenaring, Maknae Buddy (Seohyunnie)...and Ahreum. Yes, who would become one of my soulmates at Patbingsu as Naeun. ♡♡♡. Other people include TokkiLu, who used to roleplay with me. We're close pals, oho. /wiggles eyebrows at his wall that is filled with my beautiful username.
Actually, there was a guy that kind of saw through my awkward turtle shell. Let's just call him 'J'. I didn't talk to him very much, and I felt kind of awkward and uncomfortable around him as well. One day, a confessions came in... directed at me.
"I hope you can open your heart for me. Even if it takes weeks, or even
years, I'll wait for you."
Well, what could I say? It was sweet. Too sweet. I really didn't deserve it. I didn't talk to any guy recently except for 'J', so who could it be? I had my suspicions whether it was 'J' or not, but I brushed that suspicions off. He likes Namjoo. They look cute together.
Everyone else around me kept stressing that it was him, but I kept denying it. I'm just odd and awkward, no way anyone would like me!
It turned out to be me. Me, who could barely hold a conversation with most other people, who was as gullible as a child. (Seriously, do you not see I kept rejecting this guy's confession OTLLL.)
...Here's the twist.
I didn't like him. At all.
Okay, I must admit, he was my BTOB bias.
But I didn't feel anything for him. Not even a speck of emotion.
I just accepted him out of pity. I'm a horrible person, right?
These cheesy days went by, and day by day, as I started to get to know him more, I started falling for him. Hard.
I really loved him, but sometimes I never knew how to express these feelings for him. Everyone would always crowd around him when he would appear, and I just felt like a disturbance to him and his friends. I would stay quiet unless he called me out first. This is just the person I am.
(I was in "side" roleplays as well, but the "relationships" I had there were kind of meaningless, like puppy love. [...But there was that one time the bias I was spazzing over the most joined the roleplay I was in on my and we started dating the same day, my birthday. AHAHA. /screams; punched. yesh i am talking about kim jonghyun from nuest. c; you may slap me now.])
I honestly wasn't the best girlfriend. I may seem cheesy and romantic and all that junk when it's pretend, but when it comes to the real deal, it's like blanking out on a final exam. xD.
He still loved me through all this? I really can't with him sometimes. >n<.
The day came when he finally proposed to me... kind of. He had the intention to "marry me," and of course, I was thrilled, though I still felt shy. I never truly opened up to him. After we were engaged... he had to leave due to some issues in real life. And he left me... for a month? Around a month. We never got married, I guess.
My feelings for him dimmed down dramatically, and at the time, Happily Messed Up was dead, and the roleplayers at HMU led me to Patbingsu Roleplay, where I joined as Eunji, changed to Hyeri, then stayed as J-Da... hence PBS_JDa. (LOL.)
I also had tons of fun here! Patbingsu Roleplay is jjang~ /throws them greasy hearts. My closest friends here were Min/Rokhyun (Jiae bby!), Princess Naeunnie, TokkiTokkiLu, and Elly baybe make yuh crayjee. ♡
I had been exchanging some words with 'H' and he... he really was charming as he saw himself as. But he would never notice me, you na' mean? /slapped. sorry this isn't a time for jokes. LOL. What I'm trying to say is, he was kind of popular, I guess.
We still talked to eachother from time to time. He made fun of me all the time, and he was just an idiot. Wae. /shot.
I tried not to reply to his mentions ASAP just in case that rose suspicion. ; o;
...But I still had feelings for this 'J' as well, because he had finally come back. This is just some confusing conflicts, right. eue.
I ended up back in a relationship with 'J' at PBS, because it turns out he was there as well. We didn't talk. Didn't mention eachother. I think the only form of communication we had was through DM. (no naughty thoughts allowed.)
Maybe I was scared to talk to him because still, he was one of those guys that everyone loved and would crowd around. Had he changed? Had I changed? I was scared of those changes.
The feelings for 'H' hadn't quite died down, either. I really didn't know what to do.
He eventually ended it between us, and I can't lie. I didn't feel very good about it. I wasn't on my knees sobbing and using the whole tissue box, but I did fall into a temporary funk.
I just wanted to leave all the pains that 'J' and 'H' were giving me, so I decided to leave all my roleplays... which didn't turn out so well. xD.
I changed the username, but I used the account as my personal spazz area. /shot. OTL.
My feels for 'H' or 'J' haven't really gone away, but I hope by the time I'm ready to come back this summer as J-Da once again, things would work out. c:
Thanks for listening to my horrific k-drama-like crap. /sobs. And my over-use of LOL and emoticons. Yush. /hides under a rock.
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23. Learning Lessons
(by: drakyurales)
I started roleplaying at that time when Twitter K-Idols RP worlds are rare. In fact, I could consider ours to be the first one. And I would like to tell a story from which one could learn from.
So, here it goes. I started roleplaying about 3 years ago.. So there was this independent RP world that had no base account. Well, you see. No base account means no rules so. Kaboom. Then, I was clueless. For all I thought that I had to do then was to tweet and keep my account active. I joined because I was.. bored. I could say that again for you. I joined as a SM member group. Not mentioning which for my own sake. And my group members came one by one. Time flew by and I went online there 24/7. I never stopped tweeting and I always talked with the co-roleplayers I have there. Then, my hyungs started to have a couple. I thought I should have one too. I mean, it won't hurt right? But I was wrong. I started the relationship with the thought of what I was benefiting from it... which is still a mistake I can't get over with. A relationship should be a two-sided love wherein both sides get satisfaction from the other. Because of my foolishness then, I started to lose quite some of the friends I made. And I made it sure I learnt from that mistake. And the lesson is, to not to become rash in making relationships. Take your time and always make her happy.
After a year and a couple of days of remaining true to only one rp, I started joining new rp-w that just popped out. I joined this fiction world and I earned new friends. I was happy. But then the rp places I joined keep on closing. Oh, for goodness's sake. I mean seriously. We switched about 5 times up until this date.
I don't understand why. Why the same mistakes happen from time to time. The rp closes either because of the so-called plagiarism or because a member bad-mouths us. And that hurts a lot. I've been trying to keep myself from ranting in those accounts, to be honest. But these days, I just can't shut up anymore. Really. Who has the right to judge a person. Nobody is perfect and I am sure everyone IS highly aware of that. But no. He isn't. They are not. There are just these roleplayers who don't care about others' feelings. They voice out their feelings bluntly as if no one will get hurt and that was never the essence of roleplaying. Roleplaying is done for fanservice. But these days. It's just the exact opposite. Those roleplayers unknowingly ruin their idol's image and I hope for it to stop. But damn, that is impossible.
Can I just rant for a while and talk sense to new roleplayers... I have been roleplaying for nearly 2 years in Twitter, entirely as Kpop Idols and it sucks to see how the RP worlds are so ruined these days. Maybe not all, I salute those who can control their agencies but to those who don't. Let me rant at you. I know, I know, a perfect rp-w never existed. There will always be that person who is too much. Too much drama, lovey-dovey, rants, etcetera, etcetera. They are not aware that by doing such things little by little, they ruin someone's image in the eyes of the people they co-rp with. Clueless people. Let me sigh at you.
Because for all I know, a roleplaying account is not made for ranting, making dramas, having relationships, and others of the like. It has always been, or at least it used to be, for fanservice. The fanservice our idols can't do. We do them. Why? For fan satisfaction and for fun, but fun- not to the point when we just troll around all the time. Do not misunderstand.
One by one, I shall talk sense into you guys. First to the drama queens, let me tell you this: You are not in an opera. You are not joining a rp-w to get a damn Academy Award for being such a drama queen. You should be here with the thought of wanting to become a good roleplayer. And a good roleplayer does not make dramas. Well, if necessary then go. But never go overboard. Pity the people around you.
Second, to the lovey-dovey peepur. I know you love each other (do you? /wiggles eyebrows;) but, damn it. Stop spamming the damn timeline with your lovey-dovey omg. Can you not live a day without showing affection? Are real life couples like that? Do they spend every single minute of the day kissing, hugging etc? NO. They have social lives too. And real life-- lives. Well maybe, a little lovey-dovey is fine. But then again, never go overboard.
To the ranters. High five. I am one of you guys. But- there are two types of ranters. Those who rant to talk sense into people and those who rant for the sake of ranting. AKA those who rant whenever they feel like voicing out their thoughts even though when it's not necessary. I give you one advice. And that is to chill. Cool down. Though, if you can't just click that sign out button and walaah- you are out of that world.
Being a roleplayer in twitter since 2011, It hurts to see how roleplay worlds just get so disorderly and uncontrollable. Roleplayers tend to leave as if it does not matter when it actually does. When they have problems, they run away from it. How? They deactivate when that's never how all problems should be solved. Because when you just runaway from your problems, not facing them in any way, the problem will never disappear. It will remain in your mind and heart.
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So, here it goes. I started roleplaying about 3 years ago.. So there was this independent RP world that had no base account. Well, you see. No base account means no rules so. Kaboom. Then, I was clueless. For all I thought that I had to do then was to tweet and keep my account active. I joined because I was.. bored. I could say that again for you. I joined as a SM member group. Not mentioning which for my own sake. And my group members came one by one. Time flew by and I went online there 24/7. I never stopped tweeting and I always talked with the co-roleplayers I have there. Then, my hyungs started to have a couple. I thought I should have one too. I mean, it won't hurt right? But I was wrong. I started the relationship with the thought of what I was benefiting from it... which is still a mistake I can't get over with. A relationship should be a two-sided love wherein both sides get satisfaction from the other. Because of my foolishness then, I started to lose quite some of the friends I made. And I made it sure I learnt from that mistake. And the lesson is, to not to become rash in making relationships. Take your time and always make her happy.
After a year and a couple of days of remaining true to only one rp, I started joining new rp-w that just popped out. I joined this fiction world and I earned new friends. I was happy. But then the rp places I joined keep on closing. Oh, for goodness's sake. I mean seriously. We switched about 5 times up until this date.
I don't understand why. Why the same mistakes happen from time to time. The rp closes either because of the so-called plagiarism or because a member bad-mouths us. And that hurts a lot. I've been trying to keep myself from ranting in those accounts, to be honest. But these days, I just can't shut up anymore. Really. Who has the right to judge a person. Nobody is perfect and I am sure everyone IS highly aware of that. But no. He isn't. They are not. There are just these roleplayers who don't care about others' feelings. They voice out their feelings bluntly as if no one will get hurt and that was never the essence of roleplaying. Roleplaying is done for fanservice. But these days. It's just the exact opposite. Those roleplayers unknowingly ruin their idol's image and I hope for it to stop. But damn, that is impossible.
Can I just rant for a while and talk sense to new roleplayers... I have been roleplaying for nearly 2 years in Twitter, entirely as Kpop Idols and it sucks to see how the RP worlds are so ruined these days. Maybe not all, I salute those who can control their agencies but to those who don't. Let me rant at you. I know, I know, a perfect rp-w never existed. There will always be that person who is too much. Too much drama, lovey-dovey, rants, etcetera, etcetera. They are not aware that by doing such things little by little, they ruin someone's image in the eyes of the people they co-rp with. Clueless people. Let me sigh at you.
Because for all I know, a roleplaying account is not made for ranting, making dramas, having relationships, and others of the like. It has always been, or at least it used to be, for fanservice. The fanservice our idols can't do. We do them. Why? For fan satisfaction and for fun, but fun- not to the point when we just troll around all the time. Do not misunderstand.
One by one, I shall talk sense into you guys. First to the drama queens, let me tell you this: You are not in an opera. You are not joining a rp-w to get a damn Academy Award for being such a drama queen. You should be here with the thought of wanting to become a good roleplayer. And a good roleplayer does not make dramas. Well, if necessary then go. But never go overboard. Pity the people around you.
Second, to the lovey-dovey peepur. I know you love each other (do you? /wiggles eyebrows;) but, damn it. Stop spamming the damn timeline with your lovey-dovey omg. Can you not live a day without showing affection? Are real life couples like that? Do they spend every single minute of the day kissing, hugging etc? NO. They have social lives too. And real life-- lives. Well maybe, a little lovey-dovey is fine. But then again, never go overboard.
To the ranters. High five. I am one of you guys. But- there are two types of ranters. Those who rant to talk sense into people and those who rant for the sake of ranting. AKA those who rant whenever they feel like voicing out their thoughts even though when it's not necessary. I give you one advice. And that is to chill. Cool down. Though, if you can't just click that sign out button and walaah- you are out of that world.
Being a roleplayer in twitter since 2011, It hurts to see how roleplay worlds just get so disorderly and uncontrollable. Roleplayers tend to leave as if it does not matter when it actually does. When they have problems, they run away from it. How? They deactivate when that's never how all problems should be solved. Because when you just runaway from your problems, not facing them in any way, the problem will never disappear. It will remain in your mind and heart.
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24. Tho It's A RP, It Teaches You Things That You Never Expected To Learn
(by: Anon)
Hi. Have no idea to start it off with a friendly intro or whatever. Sorry. LOL
But here goes nothing or possibly everything.
I only joined rp-world cause it seemed interesting and I was pretty bored with my life outta some stuff that happened IMRL. So I decided to join and agency that was still new and was just created about 2 weeks ago. It wasn't that active tho and the only reason I joined was cause a saengiee of mine said that I look like Hyosung Unniee~~ eue not true aite?
It was truly fun and I loved it. I made so many friends that hail from ma country. \o/ oh yesss that is great and we're still friends till today cause I'm not the kind of girl who leave her friends behind. No matter what happen or what I do, I ALWAYS AND ALWAYS try to contact them cause each and one of em are important to me.
Then I was shocked with some things happened IMRL and I kept my distance from everyone and the agency was dead anyways so I didn't bother to online much but I never deact the acc cause I was attached to it cause of ma friends. They're my true friends.
And so cause I felt left out, I joined this XX agency which was pretty lively and fun. I joined as a VIXX member cause the rapper had some things in common with me.
The real story begins. LOL I feel nervous as I'm writing this cause I don't want that person to read this actually.
So I started to tweet and act crazy whenever I please cause I never care about what people think or say about me.
I met another twin char of mine. He is crazy and weird like me. T____T figures. But I think he's weirder than me. LOL gotta love that about him. And there's this LEO rp who is very cold and he does not talk much and well me as that weird person loves teasing him just cause he would react and I'd be like HAHAHAHAHAHA.
skip, skip, skip. I asked for ma twin's personal chatting acc and still we didn't talk much except in rp. LOL I acted as much of a guy I can cause I am mostly a guy IRL cause I'm not cute or anything like that.
Until one day where me and some friends on TL decided to post selcas =_= terrible right? LOL it was cause there's no one around. And I revealed that I was a girl. A REAL GIRL. I apologized to him since he tot I was a real guy and he said no I didnt see it. *facepalms* what the...... I thought. Pffftttt~ there goes my cover.
So we started to talk on the chatting acc more and more and until I don't even know how and I hate myself for ruining everything, I fell for the real him. RL him. I confessed and he was okay with it, he said he didn't mind it and he still liked me as a friend and wanted me to be around. I was happy cause he's the first person to ever say that to me. Who wanted me to be around when the whole world thinks I'm weird and crazy and just abnormal.
But the feelings got in the way of everything. And being the insane me, I had to just ruin everything, And it didn't help when he told me he has a disease. ATM I didnt know what to say or how to react. Cause I'm never good in comforting people. Nor being wih people. And the worse has happened, I got attached to the guy. And I'm no good with feelings nor knows the way to handle it.
I decided I should just leave and never talk to him ever again just to get rid of the feelings which I call, "unnecessary" and "illogical" I still believe it since we never met IRL and me, I don't believe anything that I can't see with ma own two eyes. But it happened. I fell for someone I obviously don't know. And it hurts cause i don't like the idea nor accept the feelings. I hated the feelings that ended my friendship with him. I hated the drama I created but I couldn't help it. What was done has been done.
I told him honestly we can't be friends anymore when my feelings are involved. He was more than understanding and I was glad that he didnt bash me or anything. I thought to myself. I fell in love with a wonderful guy. I'm glad. But too bad I'm not good in confining my feelings for him and stayed as his friend.
Few days passed and I was glad he never contacted me cause I seriously need to move on and forget everything. But no, he texted me on a personal chatting account.
He said, I wanna tell u something but if I can't then don't reply.
I miss talking to him so I did, yeah?
He said the one thing that literally brought tears to ma eyes. "I seriously miss you"
And I had to be cold, I answered, why would u even.....
And he said sorry.
And we started to talk about my feelings and how he liked me as a friend other than others who he have met. And I felt special. But I'm sorry, again, my feelings got in the way. I tried running away from him and I said there's no use. I don't change my mind. And yeah, he said no use either and deleted his personal chatting acc.
So I thought that this is the end of everything. But no. Few days passed and I hit a car >> I was so scared and I was in the middle of fighting about why I should not be friends with him anymore. I got scared and gave in. So we talked again.
I deleted my accs after that cause my stupid feelings kept getting in between us. what a cockblocker. >> pfffttt
But staying away was so hard when I miss him like every second of my life. SO I followed him using my PA. At first everything was alright. But, yes you guessed right, le feelings were involved again. Only this time I mean it, I couldn't contain it anymore. I finally admitted it, I was truly in love with a guy I never knew IRL and met. When that happened, I can finally accept the possibility of pushing him out of my life and out of my memories. Cause I wanted to be more than everything to him as a friend. A very good friend that won't judge, a comfy place where he can confide in and when he needs someone the most and I failed. I failed to be a good friend cause of my own selfish feelings. I still hate myself for that. And we never talked to each other ever since. But I still do stalk his accounts sometimes. Like once a month just to see if he's okay. Cause i wanna see him smiling and be happy. Cause if I truly loved him, I would want that for him. To always smile. :)
What RP has taught me is that, whatever u RP as, always be true to urselve and be a good friend. And that selfishness taught me that if he was truly my friend, I would have never left, I would have stayed. But maybe cause that's just it. He was never just a friend to me, he was an amazing person whom I really liked and cared for, whom I prayed for. I liked him more than just a friend. And oppa, I am sorry I could not have stayed as ur friend and be around for you. Tho I really wanted that, I'm just not that strong. Still till today, Saranghaeyo as a friend and as a saengie and I miss you~~ Bye
But here goes nothing or possibly everything.
I only joined rp-world cause it seemed interesting and I was pretty bored with my life outta some stuff that happened IMRL. So I decided to join and agency that was still new and was just created about 2 weeks ago. It wasn't that active tho and the only reason I joined was cause a saengiee of mine said that I look like Hyosung Unniee~~ eue not true aite?
It was truly fun and I loved it. I made so many friends that hail from ma country. \o/ oh yesss that is great and we're still friends till today cause I'm not the kind of girl who leave her friends behind. No matter what happen or what I do, I ALWAYS AND ALWAYS try to contact them cause each and one of em are important to me.
Then I was shocked with some things happened IMRL and I kept my distance from everyone and the agency was dead anyways so I didn't bother to online much but I never deact the acc cause I was attached to it cause of ma friends. They're my true friends.
And so cause I felt left out, I joined this XX agency which was pretty lively and fun. I joined as a VIXX member cause the rapper had some things in common with me.
The real story begins. LOL I feel nervous as I'm writing this cause I don't want that person to read this actually.
So I started to tweet and act crazy whenever I please cause I never care about what people think or say about me.
I met another twin char of mine. He is crazy and weird like me. T____T figures. But I think he's weirder than me. LOL gotta love that about him. And there's this LEO rp who is very cold and he does not talk much and well me as that weird person loves teasing him just cause he would react and I'd be like HAHAHAHAHAHA.
skip, skip, skip. I asked for ma twin's personal chatting acc and still we didn't talk much except in rp. LOL I acted as much of a guy I can cause I am mostly a guy IRL cause I'm not cute or anything like that.
Until one day where me and some friends on TL decided to post selcas =_= terrible right? LOL it was cause there's no one around. And I revealed that I was a girl. A REAL GIRL. I apologized to him since he tot I was a real guy and he said no I didnt see it. *facepalms* what the...... I thought. Pffftttt~ there goes my cover.
So we started to talk on the chatting acc more and more and until I don't even know how and I hate myself for ruining everything, I fell for the real him. RL him. I confessed and he was okay with it, he said he didn't mind it and he still liked me as a friend and wanted me to be around. I was happy cause he's the first person to ever say that to me. Who wanted me to be around when the whole world thinks I'm weird and crazy and just abnormal.
But the feelings got in the way of everything. And being the insane me, I had to just ruin everything, And it didn't help when he told me he has a disease. ATM I didnt know what to say or how to react. Cause I'm never good in comforting people. Nor being wih people. And the worse has happened, I got attached to the guy. And I'm no good with feelings nor knows the way to handle it.
I decided I should just leave and never talk to him ever again just to get rid of the feelings which I call, "unnecessary" and "illogical" I still believe it since we never met IRL and me, I don't believe anything that I can't see with ma own two eyes. But it happened. I fell for someone I obviously don't know. And it hurts cause i don't like the idea nor accept the feelings. I hated the feelings that ended my friendship with him. I hated the drama I created but I couldn't help it. What was done has been done.
I told him honestly we can't be friends anymore when my feelings are involved. He was more than understanding and I was glad that he didnt bash me or anything. I thought to myself. I fell in love with a wonderful guy. I'm glad. But too bad I'm not good in confining my feelings for him and stayed as his friend.
Few days passed and I was glad he never contacted me cause I seriously need to move on and forget everything. But no, he texted me on a personal chatting account.
He said, I wanna tell u something but if I can't then don't reply.
I miss talking to him so I did, yeah?
He said the one thing that literally brought tears to ma eyes. "I seriously miss you"
And I had to be cold, I answered, why would u even.....
And he said sorry.
And we started to talk about my feelings and how he liked me as a friend other than others who he have met. And I felt special. But I'm sorry, again, my feelings got in the way. I tried running away from him and I said there's no use. I don't change my mind. And yeah, he said no use either and deleted his personal chatting acc.
So I thought that this is the end of everything. But no. Few days passed and I hit a car >> I was so scared and I was in the middle of fighting about why I should not be friends with him anymore. I got scared and gave in. So we talked again.
I deleted my accs after that cause my stupid feelings kept getting in between us. what a cockblocker. >> pfffttt
But staying away was so hard when I miss him like every second of my life. SO I followed him using my PA. At first everything was alright. But, yes you guessed right, le feelings were involved again. Only this time I mean it, I couldn't contain it anymore. I finally admitted it, I was truly in love with a guy I never knew IRL and met. When that happened, I can finally accept the possibility of pushing him out of my life and out of my memories. Cause I wanted to be more than everything to him as a friend. A very good friend that won't judge, a comfy place where he can confide in and when he needs someone the most and I failed. I failed to be a good friend cause of my own selfish feelings. I still hate myself for that. And we never talked to each other ever since. But I still do stalk his accounts sometimes. Like once a month just to see if he's okay. Cause i wanna see him smiling and be happy. Cause if I truly loved him, I would want that for him. To always smile. :)
What RP has taught me is that, whatever u RP as, always be true to urselve and be a good friend. And that selfishness taught me that if he was truly my friend, I would have never left, I would have stayed. But maybe cause that's just it. He was never just a friend to me, he was an amazing person whom I really liked and cared for, whom I prayed for. I liked him more than just a friend. And oppa, I am sorry I could not have stayed as ur friend and be around for you. Tho I really wanted that, I'm just not that strong. Still till today, Saranghaeyo as a friend and as a saengie and I miss you~~ Bye
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